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|Luke|

Michael called an emergency band practice and meeting.

Ashton will definitely be there, and I'm terrified. I know that I was acting like all was well before but... what was I doing? I've never been in a real relationship! I'm sixteen!

But Michael is my friend and band mate, and Calum will be there, so I'll go. Maybe Halyn will show? Her and Ashton are pretty attached at the hip... it's actually obnoxious, if not kinda cute. It does bother me that they fucked, though. Their friendship is sweet, if not completely and utterly fucked up.

Why is there so much drama?

Anyways, I got to Michaels house and he smiled sadly. We were the only two there so far. I can't help but feel awkward... last time we hung out I quickly dismissed the kissing but now I felt the brunt of the situation. I shouldn't have gotten as excited as I did about Ashton accidentally admitting he liked me.

There's pounding on the door, and I hope to god it's Calum.

It's not.

It's Ashton and Halyn, acting more like AshtonandHalyn and being all disgustingly cute. She had her fingers hooked in the belt loops on his jeans. His hand was pressed on her lower back as they walked in and took a seat, her immediately putting her legs over his.

I glared.

Ashton refused to meet my gaze, and Michael started talking.

"Calum isn't coming," he says, looking upset. he only makes eye contact with Ashton or I, and I feel so bad for him. Halyn has only hurt him since we met her a few months ago. He fell for her, but she didn't try to catch him.

"What do you mean? Is he sick? Should we go give him cuddles and soup?" I ask. Michael shakes his head. Why isn't Calum coming to the emergency band practice meeting thingy?

"Calum is in Brazil to train to be a football player," Michael states, looking extremely upset. Him and Calum had a strong bond, they've been friends for years and years and years. Why didn't he tell anyone he was leaving?

"You're lying - he would tell us he was going to pursue football; the two of us went to every single one of his games! It's not like we wouldn't support his decision! He's like our brother!" I cry, sniffling and wiping at my face furiously. I'm always so sensitive. I'm so stupid and not masculine. No wonder Ashton doesn't want to look at me, I'm a mess!

"Lu..." Mikey says, sitting down next to me. he runs his hands through my hair soothingly.

"Mikey, tell me you're lying! Tell me he's at his house and Joy will open the door and make cookies, and let us muck around. And then Mali will scoff at us being loud and you'll apologize then go talk to her without me, so Calum and I will have to play xbox without you for a while, but it's okay because we have the cookies and he'll give me cuddles because I'm cute even though he's straight! Tell me you're lying!" I cry, hitting my small fists on his chest and sobbing. Michael just mutters sweet things in my ear, holding me so we can cry a little together.

Ashton and Halyn weren't as upset, they didn't know him enough. It stung, I'm not gonna lie. I didn't want their pity, or the looks they gave Michael and I.

The more I think about it, the more I don't want to be around them. Maybe I didn't need their messed up friendship to be happy, or need Ashton to love me back.

Maybe I'm better off with things the way they used to be: Calum and Mikey were my best friends, and I had a weird flirting thing with Alisha.

But things aren't the way they used to be, and I can't change what's already happened.

So I just continue to cry with Michael on the couch, with Halyn and Ashton watching awkwardly and not saying a word.

It's good that they don't say anything.

I don't want their pity.

I just want my best friend back.