Loving me

Troubled nights

"Angry is just hurt's bodyguard."  Liza Palmer

I see the car turning and I know that whatever I do the car won't stop until it hits something.

I open my eyes to see Alex with blood on his face and unconscious. I scream for help but no one comes.

I feel I sharp pain in my stomach.

No.

My baby!!!

I wake from my nightmare and I look around. It's okay Mia, it's over, try to breath, it's been 4 years. No matter how many nights I tell myself this mantra, it never seems to make the nightmares stop.

I turn to my nightstand to look at the time. Great 4 am, I won't be getting no more sleep. I have work at 7 am and it would take me another hour to fall back to sleep and I have to be ready by 6 am. One more month I remind myself, school will be over in one month. It seems like just yesterday I walked into this apartment after leaving every bad thing behind in Cali.

I remember how scared I was to leave the comfort of my past, my childhood, but I had to realize that most of the memories that I had there had been poisoned. I walked away and I haven't looked back. Why go back? I have the nightmares imprinted on me every night, going back will only make them seem more real.

I get up and I make my way to the kitchen. If I'm not going back to sleep, might as well make breakfast for me and the girls.
I grab the pan and I start making eggs with bacon. I take the teapot and I heat up some water.

"Really? It's 4:30 in the morning and you are making breakfast." I turn to Cassia.

She came with me to Oregon 4 years ago. She and Cara are the only people I still talk to that know my past. Other than my therapist.

"I know. Now stop bitching and start eating." I hand her a plate of food. "Is Anna still sleeping?" I ask Cassia.

"Yeah. You know that she wakes up late all the time." She rolls her eyes as she speaks.

"Are you guys talking about me again?" Anna walks into the kitchen still wearing her pjs.

Anna is our roommate, we met her at the beginning of freshmen year and we instantly liked her. When she told us that she needed a place to live, we offered the extra room in our apartment. The one word to describe Anna is, pink, everything in her room is pink and girly.
She is always in a happy mood and has a motto, YOLO. She can sleep through a whole day, but at night she is never home.

"We would never." Cassia and I say and we fake gasp.

"Here have some breakfast." I hand her a plate.

"Another nightmare?" I grab my own plate and I sit with them on the breakfast bar.

"Yeah."

"What was this one about?" I turn to look at her.

"Um, about a car accident. The girl in my nightmare was pregnant and she lost it and couldn't do anything to safe it."

"The good thing is that, they are just dreams and that, the girl you dream about is a character of your imagination." When she says the last part Cassia and I look at each other. If only she knew.

"Yeah. At what time do you start work, Mia?" Cassia asks me.

"I'm at 7am. Why?" I look at her.

"Because it's already 5:30." I look at the clock and she is right. 5:30. I get up from my chair and I put the plate in the sink.

"Shit. I'm going to be late."

"Chill. You have an hour an half."

"Yeah but I still have to get ready and you know I can't be late."

"But you are never late. Your schedule won't allow that." Cassia smirks at me.

"Leave my perfect schedule alone. It helps me keep myself in check." I say as I run to my room to grab my clothes to take a shower.
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It is 10:55 am and the line to for ordering is long. Thank goodness that I almost get my break.

"Hello. Welcome to the Coffee House what can I get for you?" I look at the man I front of me.
"Can I get a signature tea and the sandwich special." The man orders.

"Would that be all?" I ask as I type his order in.

"Yes"

"Okay your total is 6.50." The man hands me the money and I give him his change.

"Mia! Your break." Finally.

"Here is your iced coffee and salad you ordered, Mia." I turn to Rob, he works with me.

"Thank you." I take my order from him and I make my way to a table. As I walk to the table, a guy bumps into me, making me drop both my drink and food.

"Can you watch where you are going." I look up to see a man with the most beautiful chocolate brown eyes. He doesn't turn to look another way as he speaks.

"Shit. I'm so sorry. I was in a hurry because I have a half an hour break and I need my coffee." His voice sounds so beautiful, so soft and manly all at the same time.

"Well, I also have a half and hour break and you just made me drop my lunch. You better pay for a new one."

"Okay, fine." He lifts his hands up into the air. "You don't have to be rude. You need to be nicer to people, you don't want to end up alone." How dare he?

"Listen to me, mister." I point my finger at his chest and right when it touches him, I feel a spark. "You don't know me. I can be a bitch to anyone, and I won't care. I don't mind being alone if my options are men like you." I move my finger from his chest. "And don't worry I can buy my lunch again."

"Feisty." He says. "Love, all you had to do was tell me that you had a build wall around yourself."

I turn to look at him. Angry.

"First, I am no ones 'love'. Second, you don't know me." He smirks at me.

"What if I want to get to know you?"

"Excuse me?"

"My name is Enzo, what is your name, Love?"

There it is!!! The first chapter of the sequel!!! Yay!!!