Loving me

Getting to know

"Love her but leave her wild." Atticus

I am sitting inside Enzo's car looking out the window, trying to get a glimpse of where we are. All I see is a town fair. I turn to look at Enzo.

"Did you bring me to the fair?"

"Yeah. It will be fun." He smirks at me.

"I know that I'm younger than you, but I am not 12."

"Oh trust me, I know you aren't 12. And besides, our age difference is only 5 years."

"Oh goodness, I'm dating an old person." I smirk. "5 years is a lot."

"I am not old, love." He pouts. Wtf, he actually pouted, like a 5 year old.

"Need help getting of the car grandpa?" I tease him.

"Okay, now I'm just offended, love." He takes his seatbelt off and leans towards me. "Now I need to prove myself." He whispers and goosebumps rise.

"Ummmm." I try to speak but it comes out as a moan.

"Speechless, love?" His proximity is intoxicating.

"Didn't you bring me to the fair?" I say as I take my seatbelt off and I open the door to get away from the sexual tension that has now filled the car.

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The minute we walk pass the gate I am welcomed with the smell of freshly made popcorn and cotton candy. I close my eyes to control my excitement. Yes. I am very excited, the last time I went to a fair was with my family and it was as the old Mia.

"Isn't it beautiful." I come back to reality when I hear Enzo's voice. "All the lights."

"Yeah." I turn to look at him.

"Which ride do you want to go on first?"  He asks me.

"Um. I kind of didn't eat before you picked me up." I bite my lip. It's has become a habit when I'm nervous. "And I kind of need to keep myself on check."

"Oh yeah. What do you want to eat?"

"I like chicken." I smile up at him.

We start walking towards a stand when he stops and looks at me.

"What do you mean 'you have to keep yourself on check'?" Oh crap he caught on to that. Tell him the truth, Mia.

"Um. I... I have an eating disorder."

"What? But how? I have seen you eat."

"You have." He saw me eat during lunch break. "I have a schedule to keep myself on check, like I said." I take a deep breath. "If I don't, then I reject food."

"I can't believe it." I see shock written on his face.

"I know, I'm a freak." I look down at the floor. I told Cassia, he doesn't want me now.

"You are not a freak." He just said that? "I can't believe that someone as beautiful as you, would want to starve herself." He takes my hand and we start walking. "Every time you are with me, I want to see you eating."

When we get to the food stand, I order chicken strips with fries and a lemonade, Enzo orders some rid thing they have, with a coke.

We walk towards the tables and we take a seat. Once we start eating a man walks to me and starts talking.

"Hey cutie." The stranger puts his hand on my shoulder and I freak. Don't touch me! Danger! I try to move from him but he won't let me. I try to speak but I couldn't find my voice. Talk! Say No!

"Don't touch me." I say firmly. I pull his hand away from me.

He was about to speak when Enzo interrupts him.

"Hey, she is taken." He states. The man turns to Enzo ready to fight and then he sees him and backs down.

"Sorry man I didn't know she was taken." And he walks off. My heart is still running at a hundred miles an hour. I place my hand on my locket. Please, Mia. Calm down. Nothing happened. You don't want Enzo to see you like this.

"Love, what's wrong?" I can't lie to him any longer.

"I...I don't like to be touched by men."

"What do you mean? I have touched you before."

"I am surprise every time you touch me." I extend my hand to show him that I need him to sit down. He sits. "I was harassed twice by people that I have trusted."

"That's why you are so hostile towards me." I see sadness in his eyes.

"No. Enzo, with you I feel safe. I'm not scared of your touch." I look down at my hands. "I'm scared of falling for you."

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After I told him about my fear we continue eating and he changes the topic. We then walk around and get on different rides. A smile was formed on my face the minute he got me a teddy bear.

I feel 16 again. Filled with life and happiness, I don't want this date to end. Enzo makes me happy. I feel like a high schooler on her first date, I always wanted this.

We got on almost all the rides and the smile wouldn't leave my face.

"You made me happy." I blurt it out.

"I did and you I." He puts his arm over my shoulder as we make our way back to the car.
It's dark now, which means he has to go back to his daughter. Daughter, Angel. I move my hand to the locket.

"What happened?" Enzo noticed the change on my face.

"I was thinking about your daughter. I wish to meet her someday." I look up at him. "But not soon."

"Why not?" He looks at me.

"I'm not ready to connect with a child." I take a deep breath. "I lost my daughter when I was 18."

"What?" He takes his arm from around me and stops walking. "You were pregnant?"

"Yes. And because of love I lost her." I look down.

"I'm sorry. I can imagine how you must feel. I don't know what I would have done with out Sofia."

Turn to look at him again.

"Can we have this conversation another day. I'm very happy today and I don't want memories of the past to spoil today."

"Of course, Love." He puts his arm around me again and gives me a kiss on my head.

Today was perfect.