Loving me

Past and Present

"Courage isn't having the strength to go on -it is going on when you don't have the strength." Napoleon Bonaparte

"Mia? Mia Belmonte. I can't believe it's really you." I look at him, in shock.

"Alexander. Hello." I say in a stiff tone.

"Hey. I missed you." He tells me.

"I could say the same, but I didn't miss you." I turn to Enzo. Enzo takes ahold of my hand, again.

"Hey. I'm Alex Parra, you are." He introduces himself, I can hear jealousy in his voice and I know that Enzo hears it too.

"Enzo Bianchi, Mia's boyfriend." What the fuck! Enzo says while grabbing me by the waist and pulling me closer to him. Sofia is still on his arm.

"Nice to meet you." Alexander says through his teeth. He turns his attention to Sofia. He stares at her seeing if he can catch a glimpse of me in her.

"She is our daughter." Enzo says. Wtf is wrong with him?

I can see the hurt in Alexander's eyes.

"Nice to see you again, Mia. Maybe we can meet up." He continues as he makes his way to his house. He turns, giving Sofia on more look.

"Maybe not." I yell as he walks away.

"Why did you say that?" I ask Enzo.

"Cassia said that if a guy with blue eyes and dirty blond hair comes near you to introduce myself as your boyfriend." He explains.

"But Sofia?"

"She was here and I didn't know how to explain her."

"You didn't have to, he doesn't deserve explanations." I finish the conversation with that and I turn to the door.

"I really want to ask who he is, but I know you'll tell me when you are ready." Enzo says as we wait for someone to open the door to my parents house.

The door is opened by Kenan. He looks at me and gives me a hug, I stiffen. No. No please. Mia calm down. Kenan notices my reaction and pulls away.

"I'm sorry I forgot." He looks down as he speaks.

"No. Kenan, I missed you and I should be sorry." I lean to give him a kiss on the cheek. He has gotten so big.

"Don't be sorry. It's not your fault, it's that pig's fault." He says through his teeth.

He knows.

"Mimi? Is that you?" I look behind Kenan and I see Xavier. My baby.

"Yes. It's me, baby." Xavier runs to me but stops a few steps away from me.

"Can I hug you?" He asks me. I nod my head and he cautiously moves to give me a hug.

I don't know how but he knows me so well.

"I've missed you. Are you here to see daddy?" He asks me.

"Yeah."

"He is at the hospital still. They won't let us see him. That's why I stole your phone number from Cara." Little trouble. "I made Kenan call you."

"Okay. I'll come back later to talk with you guys but I first have to go see daddy." I give them both a kiss on the forehead and I turn to leave. "I'm not leaving soon."

Me and Enzo make our way to the car when we bump into Alexander, Vanessa, and Gabrielle.

"Mia." I hear Vanessa say.

"What?" I respond with coldness in my voice.

"I wanted to see if I could have a word with you?"

I laughs. Sarcastically

"And what makes you think I want to talk to you." I walk closer to Vanessa. "I'm not the same stupid little girl that wanted your forgiveness."

"I should be the one asking for forgiveness."

"I don't accept it." I turn to Gabrielle. "If you value your life, I would advice you to get as far away from this family as possible." I turn to Alexander and I smirk. "He has a tendency to suck all of the innocence from the girls that love him. Isn't that right, Alexander." I turn turn to leave with Enzo by my side. I turn before getting into the cab. "Why don't you ask Alexander who was the father of my baby. You know, the one that died." I look at him again. "Loving you... Loving you was the worst mistake I ever made." And then I get into the cab.

I turn to look at Enzo. Waiting for his reaction.

"He is the father of your daughter." I know that it's a question but it came out as a statement.

"Yes." I answer silently.

"Why were you being so cold towards him."

"He is the reason that I lost my daughter."
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I make my way into my dad's room. And I see my mom on a chair next to his bed. My dad is awake but I can see how weak he is.

They both turn to look at me.

"Daddy!" I run to him and my mom gets off the chair and walks out the door.

I take her seat and I take hold of my dad's hand.

"Princess. My beautiful princess."

"Daddy. I missed you so much." I cry into his hand.

"Me too, Princess. My sweet princess."

"When Kenan called I felt like dying. I can't picture my world without you in it."

"Kenan called? How did that boy get your number?" His voice sounds weak.

"Xavier stole it from Cara." I smile as I imagine Xavier going through all that trouble.

"How have you been, princess?" He asks me.
I look up to look at him.

"I think I may have a problem." I whisper.

"And what might that problem be?"

"I think I'm falling in love."