The Belladonna

Chapter 40

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Isabella's POV:

Harry was confused as he saw me crying.

"Bella? What's wrong?" he asks worried and I freeze, looking in front of me before fresh tears came to my eyes and I felt Harry suck in a breath as he sees his father.

"DAD?!" He yells, running to his fathers body and kneeling beside him, his eyes wide as he looks over him. His eyes filled with tears as he looked at me. "What happened?" He asks and I begin to cry again, not knowing what to tell him.

"Bella what happened?" He asks again and I grit my teeth together. "I...I killed him. I killed him." I say and he goes into shock, staying like he was for a few moments before he blinked his eyes a few times. "What?" He asks and I nod slowly, my lip trembling.

"It was me. I killed him. He asked me to kill him in order to save everyone. I had to do it Harry, I had to do it for you and for the crew. He said it was for the best." I cry and Harry's face contorts into fury as he stares at me. "You?" he hisses and I grit my teeth together in anguish. He comes over to me and grabs me by the shirt, pulling me up to him so that I'm inches from his face.

I couldn't look him in the eyes, tears falling down my face as I looked down to avoid his furious eyes. "You killed my father?? How could you do that?!" He shouted and I began to sob, covering my face.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Harry. I didn't want to." I cry and he shoves my hands away from my face and makes me look at him. He had tears falling down his face but he was furious, more so than I've ever seen him before. 

"How do you expect me to accept such a lousy apology?? How could you possibly think that this was the only option?!" He shouts and tears fall down my face.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to do it. I tried to fight it, but he wouldn't take no as an answer. I had to do it Harry. He wanted peace, he wanted this. I had no choice." I cry and he shoves me away from him, making me fall to my knees again as he glares down at me.

"Is this how you felt when I killed your father? Did you want me to feel this way too?" He asks angrily and I look up at him horrified. "No!! Yes, I was in pain, but it wasn't like this! I never wanted you to feel this way and I told him that too! He wanted me to kill him Harry. He said that it was the only way to save everyone. I didn't want to put you through this!!" I say desperately and he looks away from me.

"You're right, it wasn't like this. My father was innocent. All he ever wanted was to find me again..." He whispers and I look down. "I know. I'm so sorry Harry. I'm so sorry. I didn't want to do this. I never wanted this. I'm so sorry." I say, repeating myself before looking up, seeing him glaring at me.

"Get up." He says, and I do, seeing him take my blade from the ground and looking at the blood, narrowing his eyes angrily before giving it to me. He forces the blade in my hands and nearly cuts my hand because of it. "You can have that back, I'm sure you'll use it again to kill someone else." He spits and I look at him desperately.

"Harry please...please understand." I beg, tears falling from my eyes and he shakes his head, trying to keep himself from crying. I throw the sword to the ground and he swallows hard. "I didn't actually want to do it Harry. I promise you that. I never wanted anything to happen to your father. Do you actually think I'd want to do that to you?" I say and his body begins to shake.

"Harry I don't want to lose you. I can't. I will do whatever I can to get you to forgive me. I didn't want to kill him, I didn't. He had to convince me to do it and I still didn't want to do that. I did it to save you, to save all our friends. I did it to give him peace. I had no choice. If I would've let him live, we all would've died." I say, desperately wanting him to understand, tears stinging my eyes and Harry begins to cry, turning to me and grabbing my arms, his head falling on my shoulders.

I stared at him in pain before both of us fall to our knees, unable to stand anymore. He moves slightly and I put my arms around him, his arms holding me tightly as he cries into my chest, shaking horribly.

"I know. I know that. I just...God I wish it wasn't you who did it. Why did it have to be you?" He whispers and I cry, holding him as well as he sobs against me. "Thank you. Thank you Bella." He sobs and I choke back a sob, nodding to him, but I couldn't say anything. This wasn't something you could really feel accomplished about, there was no way to say you're welcome without the pain stopping you from doing so. I couldn't feel good about killing his father. There was just no way.

"I'm sorry." I whisper and he clutches my shirt, both of us crying against each other while we cried over this turnout. The next words Harry said was something that I don't know if I'll ever figure out.

"Why did this have to happen?" he whispers and I feel more tears fall from my eyes. "I don't know, Harry. I don't know." I whisper and he continues to cry. I stay silent as he sobs into my chest, the sound of his painful cries echoing through the cave and I squeeze my eyes shut, not knowing what else to do. There was nothing I could do now anyways, it was all up to Harry.

My eyes opened and I saw his father's body, lying motionlessly on the ground, his head to the side and his eyes closed. Fresh tears came to my eyes as I listened to Harry cry and as I stared at his father...the man I just killed.

Harry isn't as forgiving as me. I know that. Everyone knows that. 

Fear and sorrow began to rise in my stomach as I thought of what was going to happen once he stopped crying. What was going to happen? After everything he's went through recently, and me adding this on top of that...

I clenched my jaw and held on to Harry tightly, squeezing my eyes shut and burying my face into his hair, not wanting to face the reality of what could possibly happen.

He may not forgive me.

Shorter chapter, yes, but I caught a break in between all my assignments and finals starting so I decided to update! YAY!! I really hope you guys like this chapter, even though it is incredibly sad. Please let me know what you think and what you think is going to happen!!