The Belladonna

Chapter 48

Harry's POV:

I couldn't control the anger inside of me. It wasn't just for Bella anymore, either. It was everyone. There were still things I needed to do but I felt weighed down by every person here.

They wanted to fix me, to make me feel better. It wasn't that easy and they should know that. I didn't care what they thought, I don't care if they want me to get better. I'm not living by their standards and I don't give a rat's ass if they think I'm drifting away from them. 

I probably shouldn't have stabbed Bella's mother, but after seeing my dead brother hanging on the wall and her joyously loving her mother, a parent she still had, I just snapped. I missed her heart for sure, I know, but I didn't know if that was the end of it or not.

But now they all have me tied up like some prisoner, chains around my ankles and rope around my torso as I sit in a stupid chair with only a mirror and a desk to stare at. Every time I looked at the mirror, I could swear I see a stranger, but it's only me.

The door opened slowly, breaking me of my thoughts as I look over, shocked to see Bella peeking inside, a tired look in her eyes. My eyes narrowed at her as she walked in, closing the door behind her quietly. 

"Why are you here?" I ask before I can even stop myself, and I see her let out a sigh. "I was going to tell you that you didn't kill her." she says in a quiet voice and my eyes widen slightly. "What?" I ask shocked and she nods.

"She's alive. My mother will make a full recovery...in a way." she mutters and a feeling of relief came over me at those words, knowing I didn't permanently screw up because of my anger, but for some reason that relief didn't show when I talked.

"I missed too much then." I grumble and she tightens her fists. 

"Why?" she asks and I look up at her with one of my eyebrows raised, seeing her shaking as she stares at me. "Why what?" I ask in a dull voice and she gives me a small glare.

"Why did you stab her? Why do you have all of this anger bottled up inside of you? This didn't just affect you Harry!!! Why on earth did you think that killing my mother would somehow make you feel better about losing your own parents?!?" She screams at me and my eyes widen in shock before rage fills me, making me strain against the ropes, wishing I could tower over her as I yelled, but I stayed still.

"Don't talk about my parents as if you aren't the one who killed them!!" I shout at her and she glares at me, tears in her eyes as she stays quiet.

"You're the reason I'm so angry!! It's all you!! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO KILLED THEM!!" I rage, but she doesn't back down from me, rather she takes a step closer to me and glares, tears starting to fall down her face. 

"Do you think I WANTED to kill your father?! And don't even start blaming me for your mother's death!! I never even met your mother! And if I did, I have no memory of it because we were small children! Don't put that on me too!" she screams at me and I give her a glare, knowing she was right but not wanting to agree with her.

"You still-" I start but she cuts me off. "NO!!" she screams and I stay quiet, a pain pricking my heart as she started sobbing, tears falling down her face as she still tried to yell at me.

"I never wanted this! I never wanted to kill your father, or have Liam and Zayn die, or have any of you come rescue me! I wanted you to stay away from the Vitriol because I knew something bad was going to happen but I had no way of telling you to stay away! And then you show up to see your father and then I end up having to kill him. How messed up is that Harry?! Do you honestly believe I ever wanted to kill him? I have a hard time injuring people!! Killing them is out of the question, unless absolutely necessary!! And that's why I had to kill him. We would have died had I not!! And then you go off on this rampage that no one can seem to calm you down from and then you go and try to kill my mother as revenge?!" she screams and I grit my teeth together, holding back a reply so she could finish.

"No!! You don't get revenge like that!! And need I remind you, YOU killed MY father!! I know it was different, I know that, but it still hurt Harry! I still lost a parent that day but I forgave you!! Why can't you do the same thing for me?! Why can't you forgive me for wanting to protect you and the crew? I don't get it. And trying to kill my mom? Do you know how much that would've killed me had she actually died?" she yells, wiping her eyes angrily as she glares at me.

"I don't know how to get through to you Harry." she whispers, taking deep breaths and I huff. 

"You done?" I growl and she tenses up at my reply. "You don't even care do you?" she whispers and I force a grin. "What gave you that idea?" I muse and she comes up to me, glaring at me before she slaps me hard across the face, making my head snap to the side.

"How can you act like this?" she asks, her voice quivering and I slowly turn my head back, glaring at her. "How can I?" I growl, struggling against the rope but still not getting anywhere, which pissed me off even more.

"You don't know what it's like to lose a brother. You were an only child that was spoiled rotten until Daddy decided to marry you off, then you rebelled. I grew up with a brother, a twin at that. That connection is a lot more special than regular siblings. And then he's suddenly ripped away from me. Try that on for size. And to add on to that, you were taken, which made me worry at first, but when we found you I almost wish I didn't come. You kill my father, the man who used to be my hero back when I was a kid before I thought he was killed, you kill him when I thought I finally got a second chance with him. I could've been happy back with my father, knowing that he wasn't brutally killed by pirates and knowing that he was strong enough to live, just like he taught me. But no, I can't because you kill him just because he asks you to." I snap at her and she swallows hard.

"To top that all off, I lose two of my best friends trying to make some stupid agreement. I knew them a lot longer than you did, Bella, so don't pretend you cared for them more than I did." I growl and she tightens her jaw. 

"So that's why?" she asks and I raise an eyebrow. 

"That's why you're so angry? Because everything happened all at once and you don't know how to cope with it?" she whispers, a sad look now in her eyes and I give her a glare. "Don't act like you care." I snap and she gives me a sharp look.

"Of course I care Harry!! I love you. I love you still even though you treated me poorly and even when you tried to kill my mother. And you know what? I forgive you. I forgive you for acting this way and for what you've tried to do. You know why? Because it's not worth fighting all the time and because I miss the way we used to be before this all happened. I love you, Harry." she says but this time, there was nothing that pricked my heart.

No sadness, no regret. No pain or guilt or shame. Nothing. Everything felt empty for some reason and I don't know why.

"Good for you." I reply and she looks like I shot her, tears in her eyes but she blinked them away. "Fine." she whispers, turning around as she started to walk towards the door.

"I'm not giving up on you, Harry. I won't." she says and I let out a huff. "I'm not something to be fixed." I snap and she stays quiet for a moment. "That's not what I meant." she murmurs and I roll my eyes, not believing her.

"You should know that the bounties on our heads from Spain and France have been lifted. Queen Phillipa has taken care of that. Also, if you want to get your revenge, if that's what you really want, then go after the group who killed Edward. Don't continue to take it out on us." she says before opening the door and slamming it shut behind her, leaving me alone again with her words ringing in my ears.

"Go after them? I know nothing about them." I grumble angrily, not knowing why she would tell me this since I had no lead on who killed my brother, other than what she apparently heard from my father. 

I sat there in silence, brooding over the conversation we just had. One thing was cleared up for me, that was for sure. I couldn't stay here. Not anymore.

I needed to leave.

Sorry for the delay in updating! But you finally get a POV from Harry! I hope you like this chapter, and I hope you're anxious for what will happen next!! Love you guys!