Joe, We Need To Talk 》 Trohley

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Joe's P.O.V

I lay on the bed, Andy cuddled into my chest. He had apparently fallen asleep, for he is currently unconscious.

The fact that he just attempted suicide plays on my mind. If he told me, I would've been able to help him before it got to that stage where he wanted to down the pills.

I just love him so fucking much, and it hurts me that he feels that way. I just wish I could show him how important he is to me. He isn't even a want, anymore. He's a need. A need for me to survive.
A vital part of my survival.

I feel something drip onto my leg. Looking down, I see red liquid. Is this blood? I check my thigh, searching for any wounds.

Then it clicks; Andy self-harms on his thigh. He must've done so before the attempt of ending his life.

I tighten my grip, holding him closer to me. I just wish he didn't feel this way. I wish I could make him feel better. The only thing is, I'm only sixteen. I'm very limited with what I can and can't do. I can't buy him alcohol to drown the sorrow. Not like I'd do that, anyways. Its not always the answer. Besides, Andy is straight edge.

I let a single tear shed down my cheek. When Andy is hurting, I'm hurting. He's my boyfriend. I love him. And it hurts when he's hurting.

A few more tears fall. Followed by a few more. Then all of a sudden, I'm shaking with sobs into Andy's soft hair.

I tighten my grip slightly, not wanting to awaken him from his sleep. My tears continue to flow into his hair, dampening it.

He shifts under my embrace, as I freezr, not wanting to fully wake him. He buries his head into my chest once again, followed by him falling back into aS
deep sleep.

I let out the breath I had been holding in my lungs, as my eyes began to dry.

He's here with me. He's still alive. I saved him. I got into the bathroom just in time. I will never regret for a single second.

I saved my boyfriend.

Song - G.I.N.A.S.F.S
Album - Infinity On High