Howling To The Moon

Chapter 20

We left that night. It was easier once we got dean into new sutures and clean clothes. We all got warmer clothes and got in mine and Alec's cars. As we pulled out of town the clouds gathered and snow began to fall making the road up into the mountains difficult to drive. We made it up the mountain in seven hours when it took me four last time. We pulled into the hidden driveway and parked our cars running through the thick snow and into the house. We set up the living room like a hospital room with a cot in the middle. We gave him pain killers and cleaned his wounds but he still hadn't woken up. We each took turns staying up and watching over him. It was my turn and I ran up stairs to grab a blanket when I noticed Alexis's door was open. I tip toed to the cracked door and listened.

"Are we staying here forever?" Alexis asked.

"I don't know Alex." Alex said. I felt a smile creeping onto my face.

"Do you love her?" She asked and I frowned.

"Yes. Yes I do." He said and I felt something in my chest warm up.

"Can she be my new mommy?" Alexis asked I felt as if the question was a bit weird for her to ask her brother.

"Maybe, baby girl." He said and I furrowed my brows thinking.

"Goodnight daddy." Alexis said and I covered my mouth. I felt something within my chest snap and tears rushed to my eyes.

"Goodnight baby." Alec said and I backed away from the door but bumped the wall and slipped off the top stair falling down the stairs and hitting, everyone of them down.

"Oh my god, Tara!" I heard Alec yell and then heard his foot steps as he ran down the steps. His arms instantly were around me and he rolled me off my immobile face to look at me. I felt something warm running down my scalp and my eyes wouldn't stay open.

"Tara, stay with me! Tara!" Alec cried and I opened my mouth to tell him I was trying but nothing came out. My eyes began to close more and he began to be surrounded by more blackness until it swallowed his appearance and I was in total darkness. I felt like I was awake in a pitch black room. I looked around but I didn't have a sense of direction so I could tell if I was looking towards freedom or death.

"Hold on!" A voice filled my ears. I turned and light filled the black with images I had lost long ago. My father pushed me on a park swing. I was wearing my bright pink dress with pig tails and two bows while Dad was wearing his leather jacket and black jeans.

"Higher daddy! Higher!" I screamed out in joy as he pushed me and the swing went higher. I turned to the left and more light came showing me on my brand new bicycle. It was a bright pink one and dad was pushing me down a asphalt road. He let go without me knowing and I kept pedaling down the road without him, laughing and smiling with joy. Turning again revealed more memories these ones of when I was a lot younger. I was sitting in a sandbox my diaper filling with sand and me hitting the sane quite violently with a shovel my mother had bought for me when another baby came running up and snatched it from my hand. I cried but at the sound of the noise the other baby gave it back and came over hugging or tackling me. I gasped when I realized it was Josh. The other one I looked at had Thirteen year old me and Josh. It was the day my parents had been claimed dead. A call had came in that morning from the local sheriffs department. I had been waiting patiently since they left the day before on the bottom step of the staircase for their call letting me know they had made it there fine. I refused on going to sleep until I heard my mother's voice so I sat there with bags under my eyes. When the officer called he had expected me to be older but told me otherwise. I immediately dropped the phone and ran out my door and down the street to Josh's. He opened the door and I fell on the front stoop in tears. He had scooped me up and carried me back to my house. That when he stayed the whole night watching movies with me and keeping me busy. I turned and eight visions popped up. Each one had me marrying a boy I had met. They went in the order of guys I had met, Josh, Sam, Alec, Caspen, Auden, Arden, Dean and Matt. After the wedding shot it showed memories I had of them. Sighing I turned and one big shot of myself popped up. It was then that I realized the most important thing. This was my story. This was my happy ever after and who's to say I needed to be with anyone? Its my choice who I wanted to be with and no one could changed that. I had been doing this all wrong. I thought my job was to make Josh or Sam or Alec happy but it wasn't. I wasn't the one who could make any of them happy. I was the only one who coup make me happy in that way. I turned and a vision changed with a image of the first pack. Then it changed adding the others. I knew at that point what I had to do. I turned and began running. I ran past the happy, sad, and romantic. I ran past the light and into the darkness. I ran not knowing how I would do what I needed to do but I knew I would do it. I ran until the darkness turned light and opened up revealing a face.