Falling Apart

Chapter 36

Katherine's POV

It's been two weeks since I've seen David. November has kicked in and it's beginning to feel cooler outside. I've tried to reach out to him but my fingers never found the strength to call him. I know what he did was wrong but I didn't expect him to stay away from me for this long. I have to get used to being alone, no matter how much it sucks.

Jenna has been sleeping in my room a lot. She's told me pieces of what Ian did to her, which makes me more furious with both Ian and David. Jenna continues to tell me everyday that it isn't David's fault, but I know she just wants to take the blame for her actions. She hasn't been outside in these past two weeks; I don't think she's back to normal yet but she's getting there.

I've been bringing her schoolwork to her at the end of everyday. I'm back in my classes even though it's had being the only pregnant girl on campus with everyone thinking I'm a slut. No one knows what really happened, but I'll go to the grave telling nobody. No one needs to know anyway, it's my secret to keep. Only my aunt, Jenna, David and Will know, and I don't plan on telling anyone else.

For the past two weeks I've been hearing whispers about my stomach. Now that's I'm really showing, it isn't debatable that I'm just fat anymore. I don't mind being embarrassed by the names people call me. I'd be more embarrassed if everyone found out how I actually got pregnant. I don't know if it'd end up with all the attention on me, or an awkward silence that broke out every time I stepped into a room; either are bad enough.

I've mostly caught up on all my assignments, and I have been helping Jenna with hers in my free time. I haven't heard from Ian since I confronted him in the hospital and now that I'm thinking about it, Will hasn't contacted me either. I find myself looking through the phone book, searching for his name and number. After half an hour or skimming through a thousand names, I find him. William Benfield.

"Hello?" he picks up on the third ring. I clear my throat, not really knowing what to say. The last time we talked he quickly dismissed my question about him holding my hand. I still wish I never said anything.

"Hey, it's Katherine." I don't know what else to say.

"Oh. Hey."

"I haven't seen you in like two weeks. How are you doing?" the air is thick but still and I can hear Jenna laughing behind me. I mouth shut up to her and walk into the bathroom.

"I'm fine." his voice sounds deeper and I just want us to be the way we were a few weeks ago.

"That's good." I look at myself in the mirror before rolling my eyes. This is so stupid. "Okay, I'm not doing this."

"Good, me either." I hear him laugh on the other end and I feel a weight come off my shoulders. "Do you want to meet up right now?"

"Right now?" I repeat. He answers with a yes and I think for a second. Would this be considered being rude to David? If he found out I were hanging out with Will he would freak. I know they don't like each other, I don't know why, but it might feel like I'm replacing David with Will.

I shake the silly idea from my head; David hasn't even been around for the past two weeks and we aren't on speaking terms still. And this wouldn't be considered replacing because Will and I have no feelings toward each other. "Yeah, where?"

"Meet me in the lot outside your building in ten minutes?" he invites.

"Okay, see you then." I smile and hang up. When I walk out of the bathroom Jenna is standing with her ear pressed against where the door was. I roll my eyes and laugh, knowing she heard everything.