Doing The Unthinkble

Chapter 24-

Chapter 24-

Buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz

Ugh I hate that fucking alarm clock. Mondays are honestly the worst. I woke up and dragged through my morning routine. I sat an ate a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast waiting for Jarviss to come and take me to school. I waited and at 7:45 I figured he forgot, but it wasn't like Jarviss to forget especially about,e it just wasn't right. Well maybe he just had so much on his plate he forgot. Whatever! I grabbed my keys and walked out the door. I waltz to my car threw my stuff in the back and pulled off. I noticed the flag on the mail box was up and that seemed odd. I pulled up to it and opened it. Inside was a a receipt with a smily face on it. I looked at the items purchased on the receipt it was a pack of life saver gummies. I got the message loud and clear. I folded the paper and placed it in my cup holder and practically flew to school. When I got there and I didn't see Jarviss car in his parking space I knew something was off. A little voice in my ear was telling me to go by his house. So I did, I flew all the way to his house.

I knocked on the door, and knocked, and knocked, and knocked. No one answered. I couldn't figure out why wouldn't he answered or where could he be. I went to walk off the porch then I heard a paper crunch under my feet. I lifted it up and I just couldn't believe what I was reading.

To: the girl I will never forget

I couldn't find another way to say this but I wrote a poem hopefully it would help.

I've waited a hundred years.

But I'd wait a million more for you.

Nothing prepared me for

What the privilege of being yours would do.

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch,

If I had only seen how you smile when you blush,

Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough,

I would have known what I was living for all along.

What I've been living for.

Your love is my turning page,

Where only the sweetest words remain.

Every kiss is a cursive line,

Every touch is a redefining phrase.

I surrender who I've been for who you are,

For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart.

If I had only felt how it feels to be yours,

Well, I would have known what I've been living for all along.

What I've been living for.

Though we're tethered to the story we must tell,

When I saw you, well, I knew we'd tell it well.

With a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas.

Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees.

Dominique, I am sorry I actually thought we would make forever. There are monsters in my past that haunt me everyday and if something happened to you for being with me I could never live it down. Please don't hate me. And don't go looking for me by the time you would have read is I will be long gone. I love you with every inch of my heart.

-Jacy

I honestly felt my heart jump out of my chest, I broke down right there. I was crying. Crying out everything, my heart, my sorrow, my pain, my reason for existing. Everything. After what felt like hours of crying I couldn't actually believe he was gone. Just then a car pulled up and Mama Brown came out, it looked like she had been crying to. When she saw me sitting on the porch she reached down and grabbed the paper from my hand, she read it silently and then looked down at me and said.

"Baby girl I am so sorry but he had no choice." She said rubbing my shoulder just then I got upset.

"He had a choice," I said angrily. "He has a choice to pick up that phone and call me, to stop by and see me. He could've told me all of this from the begging then I wouldn't be here sitting on this porch and he wouldn't be where ever he is right now"

"What do you mean?" She asked me.

"It's over mama. The Cartel wants nothing more to do with him. My uncle took a wrap for carter on a simple drug charge years ago. If Carter would have gotten stuck with that charge he would be sitting in a prison cell to the end of his days. Since it was my uncles first offense he got off with an easy 7-10 years, with good behavior it got reduced to 4. Since then Carter has made sure my uncle has been well taken care of, he will never have to work a day again in his life. I called him and told him about Jarviss and I got this in the mail box." I ran to my car and grabbed the receipt out the cup holder. I ran back and handed it to her. She looked at it confused. "The smiley face is Carter's indirect signature the object is bag of lifesavers. They're not gonna hurt him. His debt is paid he owes them nothing."

She broke down crying. "My baby's gonna be alright" she said in between sobs. Then she looked down at her watch. "He still has an hour until he boards, he thought you'd still be I'm school by now, I can go get my son and you can go get your man."

We both ran to her car and hoped in. She flew down the street. We turned an hour drive into 45 minutes. When we reached the airport my palms started sweating. We ran right into the airport. I threw everything into the little plastic bin and rushed through security. We had seven minutes to make it the waiting area. We ran and there he was. Sitting in a chair by himself with his head in the palm of his hands.

My heart started pounding. Mama walked beside me with my hand in hers.

"Jarviss" she called out to him. He turned and when he saw me his eyes almost left his head. He stood up slowly and walked over to us.

"Mom can you give us a minute" he said looking at her intently. He turned to me and let out a deep breath. "Please Dominique don't make this anymore worse then what it has to be. I kn--"

"Don't say anything" I interrupted angrily. "I gave you everything, I put my whole heart into us. Whatever you asked I was willing to do for you. I trusted you even after everything I've been through I let you in. Even with it all I gave you everything. I guess it meant nothing to you because you would up and leave me all alone. Without a phone call, a goodbye, not even an email; just some fucking paper with a meaningless poem. What was I supposed to do when you left? You never even thought about me did you?" I felt a tear trickle down my face, I quickly whipped it away and said. " Jarviss if I never see you again it would be the biggest gift you could ever give me."

I went to walk away but he grabbed my arm, I turned and looked him directly in the eyes and saw what I said hurt him deeply. I honestly could care less. I snatched away from him.

"You promised me" I said softly. I could feel my eyes start to water up again, I placed the receipt in his hand. "Have a nice life."

And with that I was out the door, I didn't even look back. I had to get out of there and fast. I walked right into the nearest cab and began to sob my eyes out, after about 5 minutes of total silent crying I told the cab driver my address. When I got home I didn't talk to anyone, I didn't tell my sisters why I was home so early anything, I went upstairs and bawled my eyes out.