Doing The Unthinkble

Chapter 26-

Chapter 26-

It had been about a month since my break up with Jarviss. He sent me messages constantly, he called my phone almost everyday, he even stood at my locker trying to explain himself but I honestly didn't want to hear anything he had to say I was done with him. I guess after about 3 weeks he realized that we were truly over, a part of me was relieved when I stopped getting those texts and those apology calls, and then a part of me wanted him to try so that I could still hear the smooth silk of his voice.

I was knocked out of my deep thinking by Sydney running up to me asking

"What are you singing for the spring showcase?"

"I'm not" I replied "I offered to be a judge this year, we all know I win every year anyways so I wanted to give someone else a chance"

"Oh." She said kinda disappointed

"Why?" I asked

"We'll I kinda had hoped that we can do like we always do you know? I pick your song, your clothes, make up, all that stuff, it made me feel like an actual manager."

"We'll here's an idea," I said, " what about a judges choice song. Since you are the MC, there can be a portion of the show where the audience picks which judge they want to sing. It's out of me, Lexi, and principal Thomas. It's obvious the crowd is going to pick me so we can have a song ready for that."

She smiled and said "I swear your a fucking genius. That's such a good idea ill see you tomorrow after school and we can pick your song"

"Alright girl ill see you" I called back.

I went to walk to my car and I saw Daneisha and Sam arguing about something near some neighboring lockers. I didn't pay them any mind but they sure did notice me. They got really quiet and the only thing I heard was Sam say "you better handle it I don't have time for this shit" he punched the lockers and walked off. I finished grabbing my things and headed out to my car.

I got in threw my stuff in the back and pulled off. I didn't get far because there was traffic all along the street.

"What the hell" I thought to myself. I saw a lady walking in the opposite direction of traffic. I rolled my window down and called to here.

"Excuse me ma'am do you know what's going on up there?

"Yeah a bad accident involving a motorcycle, poor young man it looks bad"

My heart stopped and my ears began to throb.

"Do you know what kind of motorcycle it was?"

"No but it was red" she replied.

Oh god! I could feel my body tense up and sit still. I sat there for a moment and said a quick prayer. I then got out of my car and headed towards the accident. I walked slowly, and with every step forward I could feel my feet getting more and more heavy. When I finally reached the scene there was yellow tape all around, I couldn't even get close enough to see. Then I heard a couple of firefighters talking.

"Where they able to identify the victim?" One of them asked.

"Yeah, names Patrick O'Donald. Poor kid he died on first impact" replied the other.

I felt my heart melt in my chest. That was the biggest feeling of relief. I then broke down crying. I cried because I knew I still loved him, I cried because he was willing to leave me at the drop of a dime. How much did I really mean to him? Everything he ever said to me it was a lie. I will never ever be made weak like that again. Just then I felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked up and saw him standing there looking down on my 5'2 frame.

"Are you ok?" He asked.

I didn't answer I just embraced him. I hugged him like I didn't want to let go. I took in ever bit of his scent, his body structure and everything. Just then I realized what I was doing, I quickly let go and walked away. I walked so swiftly that I was practically running. I ran right to my car and made a U turn and decided ill take the longer way home.

There was just so much on my mind, and I realized I will always love him, Jarviss Brown.