Dayas POV
"Well hello there! It's nice to finally do vlogs again. I missed you guys." I say trying to act serious. "But in all seriousness I needed to have a talk with you guys. Last week, exactly a month after Red's accident happened, I woke up early from his phone going off at 2 in the morning. Me being a nosy person that I am I peeped in on that. He had gotten a text from a girl at 2 in the morning. I know my audiences age range and it's about 14-25. That little piece of crap was cheating on me." I say with anger hinted in my voice.
"I do forgive him and everything but I've been lied to. I know you guys wanted me and him to work out but it can't. He lied to me. I quit the offices to work independently on YouTube. I do still live with Ross, Max, and Tim. I'm not going anywhere, but until things simmer down I told Adam I want to work alone." I direct my focus on the camera. "Thank you guys for watching my shirt little vlog but I want you to know that I'm okay and I love you!" I then turn the camera off.
Being stuck alone in this little apartment is depressing. I walk into the living room and turn on the tv. An unknown film plays and it's a romance movie. Great. I watch the girl fall in love with a man that treats her like crap. I can't take anymore if this. I feel worthless. No one could ever love someone like me. I'm too short, too fat, I'm not pretty, and I have a past that most people would not like.
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TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!! DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE OR ARE FEELING DEPRESSED! THAT GOES FOR YOU LEXI! (my friend) THIS IS ONLY FOR THE STORY.
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Why must everything go bad for me. I am depressed. "I lied to my fans. I've been used." I walk to my bathroom. "I've been beat." I run a tub of water. "I've been lied to." I get undressed and look in the mirror. "I'm ugly." I get in the slightly filled tub. "I'm worthless" I get razor and take the blades out. "I'm alone." As I think about these things I take the blade to my thighs and watch it drag across my skin. The slight burn hurts but soon after the droplets of blood peak through the skin. I think about the things my ex hunter did to me. Cut. I think about the things fans have says to me. Cut. I think about what Red did to me. Cut. After I finish my break down I clean the wounds and put some sweats and a loose tank on. I drain the water and hide my blades. I walk out into my the living room and sit and watch tv until max gets home.
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TRIGGER WARNING OVER!!!!!
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About an hour later I hear Max, Tim, and Ross walk through the front door. "Hey Daya!" Max says as he plops himself next to me on the couch. "How are you doing?"
"I'm great!" I lied.
"Well wanna go out tonight? Maybe go for a walk?" He asks with hope in his eyes that I'll finally leave this house.
"Why not?" Giving him some hope.
"Great go get dressed!" He commands me.
"I'm just gonna put on some sneakers and then we can leave." I tell him and he nods. I put my shoes and we go for a walk. We talk about random things like dogs and our crazy families. It's nice to have Max back.
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Alright you guys can leave more suggestions on what should happen in the next chapter!!
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