Trudeau

The Good, The Bad, and The Dirty

House of Memories - Panic! At The Disco

Death of a Bachelor - P!ATD

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I love you, That's what he said. He said the three words that changed everything. Except he was a little late on time. Here I am at 3:00 in the morning, still reliving that moment where Justin changed everything. Not only did he still care about me, but he still loved me. 

"God, I just want sleep!" I voice my frustrations into the air. It's like no matter how badly I want to sleep, I can't because Justin said those three words. 

An hour later I find myself still staring at the ceiling; 4:00. Okay, at this point it's not even worth trying to sleep. I get up and walk to my closet to grab a pair of nike running pants, a sports bra, and a tank top. I quickly pull up my hair and slip on my running shoes. For the first time in 6 months, I'm going to go run. I can see this going very badly. The cold morning air of Ottawa whips against my cheeks as I begin my run, I ditch my headphones because you never know who could follow you. 

Maybe he was just feeling sorry for you. That's why he said all that. I mean it isn't like you weren't showing that you were struggling with the break up- well there is Kyle. Okay, so maybe it looks like your moving on VERY quickly. But it's not like he can show you he's moved on...Justin is already married. What am I going to do in the office? I'm not going to quit this internship is too big and good to give up. I mean it enabled me to sleep with the Prime Minister, so it clearly has an advantage over other people. I clear my thoughts as I run along the rather empty streets. We can at least be civil with each other right?  A part of me wants revenge and to show Justin what he's missing. Of course, that part of me wins. 

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"You look better today Miss Eliza!" Telford points out as I strut through the door in the infamous white dress that about killed Justin the first time I wore it to the office. I made sure to have on full make up this morning before I left the apartment. 

"I feel better! All I needed was a day off." I thank Telford. Well...I needed a day to get hammered, high, and laid. Telford pulls out a gridded chart from her file and hands it to me. 

"Here is your schedule for the week. We have a trip to take to Saskatchewan at the end of the week, but it is only for half a day. Then at the end of the month we will be traveling to America. So, pack your things." Telford informs me. My heart flutters with excitement. America?! I hadn't had a chance to go back in a year. I mean I know we're just going to D.C., but that is only a 2 day drive from home, that's the closest I've been to all my best friends in a year.

"That sounds perfect!" I grin widely as Telford nods. 

"Oh, good!" Telford smiles softly. "Today, however, you must finish putting envelopes on all the letters and documents going out of the country." 

Ugh, out of all things. "Sounds terrific." I say sarcastically. 

"I can always get someone else to do it!" Telford raises her eyebrows at me as she gathers all the envelopes and hands them to me. The thick canvas envelopes hold the Canadian seal and await sealing.  

"I was kidding!" I laugh slightly as I quickly grab the envelopes before she can take them back. 

"All the documents needed to be put in the envelopes are in Justin's office. He should have them waiting for you." Telford nods towards his door. As I stare at it for a moment too long and take a deep breath. You can do this, show him what he misses.