Reunion (one direction fanfic)

chp42: Let me hold you..

Kathy's *POV*

I didnt even realise its been fortnight since our first date and well from then things are going unexpectdly good. We went for two more dates after that and it felt so good. Last friday we simply went to the "Go crazy" pub and Harry made me dance, though we were with the whole group and all were dancing, but for me it was just him! For me this whole thing was again a new experience, it felt so good to be held by someone so close that your heart is no longer your's! When his hand go around my waist, pulling me into short suprise kiss-That one moment turns into something much more and we cant ever get much of each other. It is like he is slowly pulling off each of my knots and my heart-body-mind is just flying free with no fear to falling. Somewhere deep down i know even if i fall, he'l be there waiting to hold me...he wont let me fall.

I know i was giving too much and too little! Trust is weaving stronger every passing night and though we have slept together so many times but not in litreal sense...Sex makes me uncomfortable and somehow, I dont know how he just knows it!

I think we are going slow but good! I know he may want that, but till now he is good enough to supress it! Sometimes i feel i dont deserve him...he deserves someone more...beautiful-sensible-humourful-party animal just like him,instead of an introvert like me, who prefers hiding behind my book and spending time in NGO's.

Most of the nights he is at my place only, being the best pillow ever. Its like he is getting into my system as an addiction and day by day the fear of loosing him, pulls into my nightmare...but whenever i wake up sweating or crying he is always there next to me-soothing me, stroking my hair and saying all good things until i fall back to sleep. Last week he threw away all my sleeping pills but he doesnt mind me wearing Mark's clothes, atleast he doesnt let it show.

But today i have planned something..i am going to pack all the stuffs again and taking it to the charity house and believe me El was the happiest person on earth. I was glad that Harry didnt offer to help because i needed that time..that space...that last memories.

"Kathy what about these CD collection?"

"El i cant throw them in waste!"

"I know..why dont you give them to Mrs.Cammeron, she'l sort out some programme or weekend activities for the kids!"

"Hmmm 'kay..I'l do that!" Those were all of Mark's  and myfavourite movies and songs...which played every evening...but my shrink said not to keep it in the house...your brain uncounsciously associates with everything and anything and then its hard Forgetting!

"El are you tensed about tomorrow?"

"Umm..yea..but not much..Noah has our case pretty strong..i believe him in!"

"That you should...he got some solid news which will be a blessing for our case!"

"But we have our weak points too..never think your opponent is weak!"

"Ya ya..but always believe you are stronger!" i said taping away the last of the boxes.

Noah and Gemna had done a fruitful job and well we never knew those things about Alex! He was engaged to his new girl, who apparently is his buisness partner and financed him for his new gym studio. And for a head gym trainer he was not earning so well but then his girl had influence and settings. Though the news is,.that she is double dating , as in just for good sex, while planning a wedding with some other aged Buisness tycon...So if she is leaving him..his resources will get off. I feel the bastard never deserved El but some whore like that Ms.Snap My Ass N' move on!

So now that he is fearing this, he needs Lily's custody to get off the resources,If he gets the custody, according to Mark's will it will all go to Alex and hell as Gemma suggested he wont give a second thought dumping our princess into boarding.