Now,
I seem to find myself
Falling asleep earlier
Waking up earlier.
"I dreamt a dream tonight that dreamers often lie"*
The thing is, it's not self improvement that I am waking up and going to sleep early.
It's exhaustion causing me to pass out at 9pm
And it's fear or anxiety causing me to wake at 7am
"I dreamt a dream tonight that dreamers often lie"
I do not dream.
No,
I only have nightmares.
If I'm lucky enough to not be having a nightmare, then I am witnessing an empty black void, vaguely aware that I'm asleep but also in the stage of half between sleeping and being awake.
The days seem to slip by, and I fear I am losing my memory.
It started as small things like not remembering if I had eaten breakfast or where I had put my shoes
But now I cannot recall full days. My mind has started to slip away and yesterday seems like a distant past, long forgotten, only barely being able to recall that I even had a yesterday.
Why?
Why did I even have a yesterday?
Or a today?
Or a tomorrow?
Alas, for tomorrow I shall not remember today and today I do not remember yesterday.
Is this a blessing or a curse?
~S~
*Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet
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PoetryA poem book with original poems written by me. Covers a variety of different topics as it is a representation of life as I live and experience it. [Poems that aren't mine will credit the original author] //tw//: self harm, depression, suicidal tho...
