2:36am
My phone lights up with a message or maybe two
I feel my stomach flutter or twist
And I don't know if it's from excitement or regret
In the heat of the moment it feels so wonderful, I feel young and reckless like a carefree teenager
But then it sinks in and settles beneath my skin and I start to think about it a little harder
I'm so young
What's going to happen because of this?
Am I going to ruin my life because of this one small decision?
My thoughts disgust me
But I love to think them
I love even more to act upon them
But I think what I love the most is regretting everything I've ever done
I can't ever seem to stop doing that
~S~
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PoezjaA poem book with original poems written by me. Covers a variety of different topics as it is a representation of life as I live and experience it. [Poems that aren't mine will credit the original author] //tw//: self harm, depression, suicidal tho...
