Sorry For the Sin

Chapter nineteen

I have no idea where this is going! Please hang in there. I feel like its getting a bit boring so i don't know how long i will carry it on for. Please let me know what you think, the reviews mean a lot -R

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Patsy's eyes were now fixated on the boxes around her; she couldn't help but take her mind to what her life would be like without all her friends around her.

"Pats, sweetheart," Delia said walking over to the record player and starting their favourite record. She pulled Patsy up from her bed and they stood in each other's arms, dancing slowly around the room.

"At least we aren't ghosts anymore," Patsy said looking at her welsh girlfriend and they moved slowly around the room she shared with Trixie, carefully avoiding the boxes. Moving in sync, in harmony.

Delia smiled as she remembers the evening at the coffee shop. Her memories after the accidents were all there just slightly jumbled yet she could remember that night as clear as it was yesterday. During her recovery, she couldn't work out why it stuck so clearly in her mind but when she returned to Poplar it hit her. That evening in the coffee shop was so important because that was when she knew. She wouldn't want her life without Patsy and she wouldn't lie, she couldn't live her life in a lie.

"I love you, Cariad. That means I will defend you with my life even if the odds were insurmountable. It means I will comfort you in the challenging and painful times. Its means I will dance and rejoice with you when times are good. It means I will never betray you, never give up on you. It means finding my fire with you Patsy mount, my loved one when you are being threatened yet never waging war – only doing what is necessary. Love is saying I forgive you. My ma used to say that love will test me, and this feels like an enormous test but knows I am yours no matter how many miles will stretch between us. I will never abandon you. It means that I will never put you in danger no matter how noble the cause may be. My teacher used to make the call remember that love means protecting the earth, protecting humanity, being kind to everyone but should anyone demand your life to save their own you tell them to rot in hell". She smiled a little, remember her old teachers saying " There can never be a higher calling to me than loving you Pats."

"I'm going to cry," Trixie said standing in the doorway. She didn't realise she had interrupted their special moment until she had already opened her mouth.

Patsy let out a burst of laughter

"Oh crumbs, I ruined a moment did I?" Trixie said

Delia didn't look a Trixie she was still staring deeply into Patsy soul. Delia nodded slowly, trying to hold in her laugh.

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On Sunday morning both Patsy and Delia with the support of Trixie went down for breakfast. Patsy had avoided everyone since they were told her departure but she couldn't not say goodbye and plus she was hungry. They sat there knee deep in silence. The faucet dripped into the sink, each one reverberating around the room like a cymbal, yet it felt like no one blinked or moved to stop it. Outside there was no noise, not even a bird singing. That morning everything food that Patsy put in her mouth tasted like cardboard. No amount of chewing made her toast possible to swallow. Her mouth was dryer than a sandbox in summer.

"I better be off, the insulin won't get to the people themselves," Trixie said. The nurse stood up slowly placing her hand on Patsy's back as a way of support " I will help you finish packing when I get back" she said, it was aimed at Patsy but said it loudly enough in order to make the nuns uncomfortable.

"I have the day off if you need any help." Sister Winifred said- she was trying to be supportive and unlike sister Mary Cynthia, who Trixie believed offered to help Patsy just to make sure Patsy and Delia weren't doing anything that her version of God would disprove off.