Decisions, Decisions (Andy, Vic, Kellin X Reader)✔️

I'm Not Giving Up Yet

I haven't gone to school in 4 days, no one has called to check on me....except Vic apologizing a million times. I'm not responding to him...hell no. I feel so drained. I'm tired, emotionally exhausted, and depressed. I'm laying in bed and I'm overthinking things, that's all I've been doing. It still hurts...Vic cheating...yea. I...I'm in trouble. I haven't eaten that much, I haven't showered, Raina's been using the bathroom inside because I don't wanna go outside. She made a mess in my kitchen because I haven't fed her. Oh, Raina...I'm sorry. I should really try putting my life back together. I decided to take a shower first, slowly getting out of bed. Walking to the bathroom, I was still overthinking. Tears came to my eyes again as I turned the water on. I got in the shower without taking my clothes off. I'm just breaking down in the shower...no one will notice what happens. I was sitting on my knees in the shower, crying, for about 10 minutes. The water ran down my face, mixing with my tears, it soaked my clothes and hair. "WHY THE FUCK AM I FALLING APART!??!?!" I screamed. "(y/n)??" someone called my name. I know that voice. Vic. I looked up at him, my eyes blaring red. I immediately looked back down, I can't stand seeing him. "Why are you here?" I asked, weakly. "You haven't been in school and I've texted you a million times...(y/n)...it's not what you think." he said. "Then what was it!?!" I asked. "That was some girl who's had a crush on me for the longest time. She never had the courage to come up to me and say she liked me. She didn't know about you. She came over and told me everything she was holding in. She got on top of me and kissed me repeatedly. I was gonna tell her that I had you, but you came in saying Kellin almost raped you and everything. You got the wrong idea and left before I could explain. When you left...(y/n)...I fucking yelled at her and told her to never see me again...I was so angry that she ruined us." he explained. "Vic, I really just wanna be alone. *whimpers* I want to be by myself and cry out all of my pain. Please leave." I said. "I'll do what you ask, but I won't stop thinking about you." he said. I felt him leaning forward to kiss me, I put my hand on his chest and gently pushed him away. "Ok...I'll text you...bye." he said. I stayed there...just sitting. My crying stopped. What if he isn't telling the truth? If he really loves me...he won't stop chasing me. I'll wait for him to catch me. I started pulling myself together again and took off my wet clothes. I washed my hair and body, feeling very refreshed after. I went to my room and looked at it. It's a real fucking mess. The mess happened on day two of me being depressed, I threw a tantrum on why bad things happen to good people and trashed my room. Clothes were everywhere, my cosmetics were lost in the mess, my perfume bottle broke when I threw it at my wall. My bedsheets were half on my bed and half off my bed, two pillows were missing pillowcases, my mirror broke when I punched it. Dresser drawers were half open and closed, some were even out of their places and on the ground...I pulled some out. I'm such a monster when it comes to tantrums. I looked through my closet...only to find all my shirts on the floor and all of my shoes and jewelry out of place. Parts of necklaces were visible under my scattered shirts. I saw something sparkly in one of my converse...an earring. I picked up a shirt, found a random pair of pants and some underwear, and a bra hanging on the side of my bed. I put everything on and looked at the mess again. I then went to my livingroom, Raina was sleeping in her bed. There were pee stains, some dry droppings, my couch pillows were on the floor. I saw my kitchen, Raina tore open her bag of dog food, the food was scattered on my kitchen floor. Raina is smart...she gnawed on a bottle of water until it bursted open and she drank it off the floor. I had a mess to clean up..but I need help. I am not calling Kellin. I'm not calling Vic cuz idk. Andy! I can call Andy.

*on the phone*

Andy: Hello?

You: Andy!!! Heyy!!!

Andy: (y/n)!! Long time, no see! What's up?

You: Um..I'll explain later, it's a long story. Can you come over? I need help cleaning my place up.