"Why are you here today Ms. Jewel?"
"I'm a herion addict." I said and she sighed.
"Why do you abuse the drug?"
"I've been under a lot of stress lately." I said and looked at the woman.
"Like with what?"
"My baby's father, cheated on me. I'm starting to sense that my best friend might not be my best friend."
"Like do you smoke it? What the hell do you do?"
"No, no I've never smoked it, I'll snort it or inject it. I last hit it about a week ago, and I've been taking medicine to ease the withdrawal but, I just ran out and in a hour it's going to start.happening. I'm not going to be able to function like I do with meth. In a hour I won't be able to feed my son. In a hour my daughter won't be able to trust me. I can't get help because if I step out the fucking house it's oh you're Eminem's ex-girlfriend. We got into this huge fight yesterday and it got physical. Like we were punching each other in the mouth and kicking each other. I was high and he was too. He's a sleeping pill addict he just won't tell himself that he's being a shitty person to me and his kids. I don't deserve this. Sure, I've had problems in the past whatever his ass has too. He's a pissed off asshole because his momma didn't have a job and beat his ass everyday. I was raped. I just connected back with the guy because we had a child and it just. I needed clarity. He's here if something happens to my daughter. He's here if something happens to me. That's all I ever wanted but, something keeps stopping me."
"Write him a letter Angel. Tell him how you feel tonight. Go to the house and read to him."
6:30 PM
"Marshall, I need to talk to you." I said and banged on the door. He opened it and I walked in. Soaked from the rain.
"You okay." He asked. I looked at him and water fell from my eyelashes.
"I went to see a drug thingamajic and she said I stood talk to you." I said and I walked to the living room.
"Okay." He said and sat down.
"It took me a little bit figure all this out, I ain't gona take a charity marry me perfect, I know I love you I ain't tryna let those words slip. I gotta be true pure bliss, I know that we will stay together, we in cursive. I love you since I met you there was a infatuation, when every single move you make is fascinating.Hope you find what you lookin' for, I hope you find what you lookin' for. Even if it ain't me. In between the fucking drugs I have taken that have clouded up my brain , purgatory ain't as bad as it would seem to be. Live a dream, that's so cliche but I can't tell you what it means to me." I said and he stood up and hugged me.
"I love you too, but yo' you smell like wet dog." he said and I chuckled.
"I'm going to get some coffee from Starbucks. I'll be back." I said and I smiled.
"Okay." He said and he stopped me.
"You should take a shower first tho, you know. You can borrow my white shirt and cargo pants." I walked upstairs and I got in the shower and Marshall just walked in on me like it was okay.
"Hey are we together or not?"
"Let me get coffee in my system and then ask me." I said and he laughed.
"Okay."
Starbucks
I walked in with Marshall and he hid himself with a beard and a hat. He sat down at a booth and I went to the counter and some girl and her friend bumped into me dropping coffee on Marshall's outfit and me.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry." One girl with long blonde hair with a dipped aqua blue tips and side bangs. She was pale, and petite with grey eyes. She also dropped a notebook and that too was covered in coffee.
"It's okay, I'm sorry about your notebook."
"It's just a fucking notebook Autum."
"Mom." It was Cassidy.
"LET'S GO!" She yelled and I grabbed a couple of napkins and wiped some of it off. I ordered some muffins at the counter and hot chocolate. I walked to the booth and he kissed me quickly and then he took a bite of the muffin and the beard fell off.
"OH MY GOD! I TOLD YOU EMINEM WAS HERE!" Someone yelled.
"Kayla Marie sit your Puerto Rican ass down." Kayla, had brown hair and brown eyes and a I Heart NYC shirt on. We stood up and everybody screamed.
"NO DON'T LEAVE." We sat down and everybody went back to what they were doing.
"Angel do you think we could ever-"
"Did you fuck Grace?"
"WHAT?"
"Keep your voice down." I said and he sighed.
"No baby. That's your friend why would I disrespect you like that?"
"So I'm fucking stupid. When she's around you look at her the way you look at me that's not fair." I said and he groaned.
"You don't love me do you?"
"I do love you. I do. It's just hard I mean I'm taking care of four kids by myself it's tough. I'm sorry if I make you feel bad or anything I'm sorry baby." He said and I sighed.
"I don't know. Man, the insides of my insides hurt, my face is puffy, my eyes are red, I have hot coffee sticking to my skin, I got a blister on my thigh." He laughed.
"I'm sorry."
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Suffocate (Sequel To: Together)
रोमांसI breathed in and wiped my face. So much shit had happened and I didn't know where I was going with my life. No husband, thanks Kim. Single Mother of two, thanks Marshall. No car of my own, thanks asshole. I was kidding myself. Nobody understood. No...
