Suffocate (Sequel To: Together)

Desperation

I woke up and he was wrapped around my belly listening. I looked at him and I rubbed my fingers through his brown hair. He looked up at me and smiled. I sat up and moved to the bathroom. I'm so happy it's Christmas Eve. I had a doctor's appoint today to hear the heartbeat and find out the sex. Hopefully it's a girl. I turn on the TV and my worst nightmare becomes true.

"23 year old Angelina Jewel and her three year old daughter Angelica have died this morning in a homicide-sudicide predicament. We have her ex-boyfriend and baby's father on the phone now because he was present when the event took place. Goodmorning Devion."

"Good morning." Devion says and he just breaks down.

"Can you tell us what happened?"

"She comes back from a little family get together with her mom, we start arguing because I don't like her having my child out at all hours of the night. She's like 'fuck it, I'll kill myself and the baby so you ain't gotta worry.' She locks herself in the room with the baby. I'm screaming, I'm shouting, 'Babe don't do this don't do this.' I hear her say 'Close your eyes baby.' Angelica's last words were, 'I love you mommy.' I flipped out when I heard the bullets. Two bullets five minutes apart from each other and it was terrorfying." Marshall walked in and he gasped. I walked downstairs a blanket tied around me. I walked to the kitchen and continued on with life. My daughter killed her daughter then herself. Coward. I can't cry over that. I can't. I walked to the closet and pulled out a sweat suit. I pulled it on and woke up the boys.

"Go to Nana's room." I said and they walked to Debbie's room and I closed the door. Marshall came out the room and we walked to the truck and hopped in.

"Babe, you aight?"

"I'm aight, Marshall I'm fine."

"You're not even crying."

"I feel really numb right now, it's sinking in." I said and he pulled into the office. We walked inside.

Fifteen minutes later

"Okay let's see." The doctor put the jelly on and then we looked at the ultrasound.

"Pop open them legs baby." I said and she did. Yes she did. She had to be the happiest baby I'd seen. She was moving her hands and pressing them against my stomach. I sniffed and a tear fell out as we heard the baby's heartbeat.

"Oh my god." He said and looked at her.

"She's a beauty." I said and listening to this heartbeat thumping. He took pictures and then gave them to us. I hugged him and he kissed me.

Home

I laid on the couch and rubbed my bump. The boys were down here and by this point everybody knew. Everybody looked at me like I was crazy for not being emotional. Here's how emotional I'm going to get. Me and Marshall laid on the bed and he was talking to me.

"Just want you to myself, don't wanna share you with no one else." He whispered and then I said.

"What the fuck you whispering for?" I said and he rubbed his hand on my leg. He kissed my cheek and I laughed.

"Babe." He said and I felt the hot tears come down my face. Soon I was balling my eyes out. I was only going to let it out now because, we're alone.

May 12, 2013

So nine months pregnant is a milestone for me. The boys were born a month ahead of time and Angelina was born at seven months. I rubbed my stomach and Marshall looked at me.

"How ya feelin'?" He asked and I smiled.

"My ribs are sore and my face is plumpy."

"You're glowing." He said and I grabbed a tissue and rubbed my forehead.

"How you feel sense this happened?"

"She murdered her child and then herself so I have no respect for her." I said and felt a hard kick and then a watery fluid going down my leg. I stood up and I panicked.

"You ready?" He asked and I nodded. I walked with him to the car and he speed the whole way to the hospital.

9 Hours Later

"Aaliyah Angelica Mathers." I said and rubbed her soft skin. I was a softie for babies always. Mia came in with flowers.

"Hey Sis." She said and Dad came in. My mouth dropped and I smiled.

"Daddy." I said and hugged him. He was bald and I noticed the breathing tubes in his mouth.

"How are you?" He asked and I nodded.

"How ya doin' Mr. Jewel?"

"I've had better weeks. First off, I have cancer. Lung cancer it's spread to my brain and I have chosen not to do radiation and cemo." I sniffled and nodded.

"I don't want you to die, Daddy. But, happy thoughts. Aaliyah Angelica." I said and passed her to him.

"She's so precious." He said and he kissed her cheek

"Why's he here?" Marshall asked me softly.

"I don't know. I thought he was dead already." He kissed me and looked at Mia smiling.

Author's NOTE

So, I'm inspired by this song. Desperation. Plot is he finds a woman they use each other but, eventually they fall for each other. Crazy right.