Suffocate (Sequel To: Together)

Crazy in Love

We left that Irish and went to this Japanese place. We walked in hand and hand and we ordered sushi. We sat at the table and he looked around.

"Can I talk to you?" Marshall asked.

"Um what's up baby?"

"Can't you see what you do to me baby? You make me crazy, you make me act like a maniac.

I'm like a lunatic, you make me sick,You truly are the only one who can do this to me. You just make me get so crazy."

"Um okay."

"You're the ink to my paper, where my pen is to my pad the moral, the very fiber the whole substance to my rap. You are my reason for being the meaning of my existence

If it wasn't for you. I would never be able to say this. As intense I do and the irony is you rely on me as much as I rely on you to inspire me like you do."

"I inspire you?"

"You provide me the lighter fluid to fuel my fire. You're my entire supply the fuckin' gas, the match, the igniter. The only way that I am able to stay so stable is you're the legs to my table If you were to break I'd fall on my face. But I'm always going to make you feel, that I don't need you as much as I really need you so you don't use it to your advantage but you're essential to me. You're the air I breathe I believe if you ever leave me. I'd probably have no reason to be. You are the word I am looking for when I'm trying to describe how I feel inside and the right one just won't come to my mind. You're like the pillar that props me up. The beam that supports me. The bitch who never took half, the wife who never divorced me. You're like the root to my evil. You let my devil come out me. You let me beat the shit out you before you beat the shit out me and no matter how much too much is never enough. Here's what I'm trying to ask you." He got down on one knee.

"HOLY SUSHI!" I screamed and we laughed and he kissed me quickly.

"Angel. Will you-"

"YES! YES!" I laughed and he slid this platinum ring with fifteen diamonds on it on my finger.

Home

Angelina and Mario were on the couch sleeping and Hailie, and Alaina were on the floor eatting and playing UNO. Whitney was watching tv. I kissed everybody goodnight and ran upstairs.

November 30, 2003

We had moved back to the main house and we were getting ready for a date at a aqurium. I unbraided my hair and slid on my black dress and we left.

Aqurium

We walked through the aqurium and held hands. Nobody was here but the tour guide.

"I'm just trying to make it all make sense as you hypothesize on how to monetize and take advantage of all the time we fall behind, and I just wanna get lost in this Aquarium."

"We become celebrities, distract from the hysteria. Read about the meanings of dreaming and all its messages but, nothing makes sense right now but you and me." I said and he smiled.

"No matter what my heart will always be for you." Marshall said standing behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I looked up at him and smiled.

"I love you." I said and he nodded and looked away. I looked down and he breathed in my ear lightly.

"I love you too Angel." he said and kissed me quickly. I laughed and we walked to the glass and looked at a fish swimming by.

"DORY!" Marshall yelled and I laughed again. I kissed him and he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and pushed myself up on his shoulders. He walked us to the end and then I climbed off as we walked outside.

Home

"It was fun. But I'm tired my babies so I'm going to sleep. Love you." I said and walked to our room. Marshall was sleeping and I climbed into bed and he started snoring. I sat up feeling something crumbling under me. I moved my hands along my side and felt it snag against something. I grabbed it and walked to the bathroom. I rubbed my eyes quickly and turned on the light. There was a bag of prescription bottles. I looked up in the mirror and Marshall was there. I turned around sharply and he looked at me.

"Angel where did you find those?"

"On my side. Marshall what the hell. You promised." I said and a tear dropped from my eye. He groaned.

"I can stop when I want to." I sighed.

"You know what I don't even care. If my kids find your little fucking drugs I'm out." I said and walked to the bedroom and I fell into bed. I drifted asleep and when I awoke I was covered in sweat and my heart was beating faster then necessary and so I walked downstairs feeling sluggish and I walked to the living room. I sat on the couch and turned on the TV and sighed. I laid down and closed my eyes quickly and when I popped them open Marshall was looking at me. He was clearly sober and just as slug as me. I held his hand and Angelina walked in with Mario in her arms. He was sleeping just as soundly as possible and I smiled. Angelina laid on my legs and Marshall looked at the TV.

"Y'all hungry?" He asked and we laughed and nodded.

"Waffles?" He suggested and we nodded. He smiled and I laughed.

"Let me help." I said and he grabbed my arms and we walked to the kitchen and we got it done. I cracked the eggs, I let him mix, and then I did everything else. He served them and when I finished mine I had this pit at the bottom of my stomach and I had to throw up. I got up and ran to the bathroom and threw up in the trash can. I closed the door and I looked at my self in the mirror and I sighed. I brushed my teeth and checked the date I was supposed to have my period. I'm like 2 weeks late. I sighed again and sat on the toilet. Contemplating on what to do. I walked upstairs ignoring everybody's worried looks. I got dressed and I grabbed my keys and I drove to Wal-Mart and I grabbed every good pregnancy test from the two lines to the one's that told you. I brought them and hid them in my jacket, pockets, and my purse. I walked in and ran to the bathroom upstairs with a water bottle and sat down. I took every one and everyone came out positive.