Suffocate (Sequel To: Together)

Stronger Than I Was

Marshall's POV

But, that promise was broken swiftly.

May 1, 2010

"I can't be with you anymore."

"Just lay here with me, baby, hold me please."And I beg and I plead, drop to knees and I cry and I'd scream, baby, please don't leave.

"I need to get out of this house. You cheated on me with Kim!"

"It was a mistake." I snatch the keys from her hand and she groans.

"I can't fuckin' look at you!" She said and looked up tears draining from her eyes.

"But you're all that I love!" I shout aggressed, "you can't leave. Please stay here with me, baby, hold me please." She turned around and wiped her face.

"I can't. Everytime we'll play I'll be thinking about that. And by the way asshole our anniversary is on the 21st there's not a motherfucking 31st of November you brainless bastard." She said and tears dropped down her face.

"First time you left me and left me with nothing but shattered dreams and you're going to do it again. And a life we could've had and we could've been."

"THERE'S NO COULD OF. IT'S OVER! When I wanted you, you didn't want me and it's the same way now." She screams and zips up her second to last bag,"I'm done being your punching bag because I left. Atleast I'm staying in the city. Fuck." She said throwing the rest of the shit in a bag and she walked out and her friend came in and grabbed Brandon and Mario and they left.

It was the November 21st today, would've been our anniversary. I sat on the floor of the studio and wrote her a letter.

"Two years, but you left on the first of May. I wrote it on the calender, was gonna call, but couldn't think of the words to say. But it came to me just now, so I put 'em in a letter to lay and I thank you cause you made me a better person than I was but I hate you cause you drained me. But if you blame me, you're crazy. After all that's said and done I'm still angry, yeah, I maybe I may never trust someone like I trusted you, Angie." I signed the letter and breathed and laid my hand down on the floor and held the letter in my hands and I fell asleep.

She's coming to talk to me today and honestly I'm so excited. Maybe we can work it out. Maybe we can compromise. We could start over. She wouldn't dare to decline. She loves me just as much as I love her. Rachel was coming over a lot and those who don't know Rachel she's a chick I met in Detox. She was like the homie, Cassidy and Grace and myself had a falling out when I was still on drugs.

"Marshall." Angel's sweet voice said and I met her at the fuckin' door.

"Hey, Angie."

"Is there anybody here?" She asked and I nodded.

"My friend Rachel from-"

"Oh yeah." She said and she walked in snow in her hair and her face red. We walked upstairs and walked into the room I slept in by myself last night. She slowly removed her winter coat, her sweater, her hat, her gloves, her ear muffins, her long sleeve shirt, and her sweat pants revealing a short sleeved shirt and skinny jeans and we started talking. I told her that we could try and she agreed.

"Yo, remember when I answered DeShaun's phone when his momma called."

Flashback

"Your mom is calling." I said.

"Yo, pick that up for me."

"I usually don't like answering other people's phones but- EY WHAT UP BITCH!"

"NIGGA THAT'S MY MOMMA!" He said and his voice got hella high.

Present

We started cracking up and Rachel came in.

"Hey, Marshall I'm going to head out." She said and I nodded. Angel looked at me and I laughed.

"She's pretty." Angel said.

"Yeah, but you're gorgeous." I said and she laughed.

"You think you cute right."

"Right." I said and she laughed.

"Whatever. I got a meeting in a hour that I gotta get ready for."

"Aight." I said and I hugged her. We talked as she pulled on the layers. We hugged and kissed and she left.