Explanation

worthless

Feeling like no one cares is a weird feeling.

Because, like, it starts slowly.

Maybe you don't get invited to a party one day. You feel sad, yeah,but you still have hope that someone might show you some pity.

And then the next day you're absent from school and you ask a friend to tell you the homework. You wait hours after school for their text, but eventually, you have to admit that they forgot about you.

Feeling like no one cares is a person ignoring you for five minutes while you've asked a question three times.

It's your dad saying he wants to go out to dinner with you, then leaving four times in the first fifteen minutes and barely talking to you the rest of the time.

It's your friends not texting you unless they need to ask a question or a favor.

It's sitting in a different seat at lunch and barely noticing you're there.

It's your friends not really why you weren't there that day.

Its someone lying about you to another person and not wanting you to know. Its that same person only ever talking about themselves.

Feeling like no one cares builds over months or years, but before you know it, you're crying yourself to sleep because your mom fell asleep while you were trying to read her something.

My friends talk to each other, but never to me.

It's seeing people having a good time and wondering why you're never invited to parties or trips to the mall or, hell, even to hang out.

Its not being invited to your best friend since diaper's birthday party.

Its everyone having friends that care about them and want to hang out and talk with them and being left out.

I just kind of wish people cared.

I wish I was good enough to talk to. I wish I was good to invite to things.

I just wish I was good enough.