Explanation

Poetry

Poetry is not something I really get into.

It's not that I don't like poetry as a concept. You know, express your feelings using cut off lines that sometimes form sentences.

And their are really cool poems out there.

Basically, what I'm saying is that I hate writing poetry.

As you guys know, I'm a pretty creative person.

I draw. I write. I sing, sometimes.

Overall, people would think that poetry comes pretty fucking easily for me, right?

Yeah, no such luck.

Poetry has never come easy for me.

Well, not as easily as writing a story or drawing some weird person with weird hair.

Writing a paragraph or a page is so much easier to write than a six-line poem for me.

I'm so used to having as much space and room on a page to write and then I can turn the page and I can whole lines of a notebook when I write a paragraph or a short story.

But cutting off at the approximate syllable or word count as the last line has always been a bit hard.

And that is how I write poetry.

If one line is more than three words longer than the last line, it freaks me out.

With that long line there, it distracts me.

But when I write a story, I can use how many words I want in a line and how many pages I want in a chapter.

With drawing, one eye can be a bit bigger than the other or a little farther or closer to the nose or the hair can be asymmetric with a bunch of crazy strand and tendrils everywhere and I don't give a shit.

But there's something about poetry that gets me so OCD that if a word or syllable count is off just a little more than it should be, it physically distracts me.

Also, most of the time, poetry is personal. Poetry talks about emotions or personal experiences. It's like an autobiography with how many lines, with rhymes and rules and frankly, it fucking scares me.

I'd rather write about and describe the life of a fictional character that I can decide and create as I go along. Which I love and it gives me so much more freedom with the things I write.

With drawing, I can create how many people I would like too without anyone judging how it looks.

Because poetry is judgmental thing. With poetry being about the writer, the writer is giving people who read it a look into their life and into their mind.

I am lame. I am uninteresting. My too defining characteristics are sarcasm and fat.

Those two things are probably the first things people notice about me.

The fact I could probably fit three of you in one of me and the funny/mean sarcasm that I use as a coping mechanism.

Because I feel judged.

Whenever I go outside, I feel people staring at me. I feel the looks people give me.

Even when people aren't actually looking.

I feel like, at any moment, someone is going to insult me. Someone is going to comment about how fat I am or how ugly I am or how I should lose some weight.

About how people actually see me.

Wow, this just got really deep.

Fitting when it come to poetry, really.

Good Night And Good Dreams everyone

Katie Houde, signing out.