Allison's POV
Basically, today I'm having a bad day. I'm shutting everyone out and staying in my room. They've tried talking to me, but I wouldn't budge.
It's the middle of the night and everyone's asleep or in their rooms. I carefully walk down the stairs as quiet as I can and quickly walk out the front door. I begin to walk to God knows where. It was dead silent outside. You could hear a pin drop. Although it may be peaceful, it's a signal for my thoughts to begin.
I miss my mom. I miss my dad. I miss my old friends who left me. I miss my old life. The life I had before my dad became an alcoholic. When I had friends who were loyal to me. Who were always by my side. When my parents loved each other. When they loved me. I miss it. When I was younger, I used to wonder why people killed themselves. Now I wonder why I haven't killed myself yet. It's times like these where I wish I had someone who would help me. Yes, I have Izzy and the 5sos boys, but I can't tell them about this. I'm such a hypocrite. I say I want help when I don't even want to ask for it. Although, other times I wish people don't care about me so I could kill myself.
Up ahead, I noticed a cliff. I made my way towards the edge and stood there, looking at the night sky. Why can't I have my old life back? Why did it all have to turn into...this?
My mind began to swarm with all my thoughts and questions. I then let out a loud scream, sounding as if I was being murdered. My scream slowly turned into sobs.
I give up
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Hell Above//mgc
Fiksi Penggemar"Cause this is a wasteland, my only retreat With heaven above you, there's hell over me" *** May Include: Swearing, Mature Content, Drugs, Alcohol, and May Be Triggering To Some Readers <3
