Hell Above//mgc

Chapter 29

I know it's hard, but who are you to fall apart on me, on me?

Allison's POV

I looked at him in complete fear and shock. How am I letting so many people find out about this? I'm so stupid. How could I let this happen? First Michael found out, and now Ashton. Who's next?

"I ran out of honey while putting it in your tea so I don't know if it's enough or not..." Luke trail off towards the end once he looked up and saw my wrists. He stared at me with worry and hurt present in his eyes. Soon after, tears began to fill up in his eyes and he began to start crying softly.

"I'm sorry." I whispered then broke down into a loud sob.

"Why didn't you tell me? I could've helped you. I could have help you! Goddamnit I'm so stupid. Here I have a friend who's clearly in pain and I couldn't even tell that she was faking her smiles and happiness. I'm so mad at myself oh my god. It was so obvious, but I completely ignored it. You never even ate either. But I thought nothing of it. I'm a fucking horrible friend!" Luke cried.

"Luke, look at me." I said and grabbed his face and turned him to look at me, "None of this is your fault, okay? This was the bullies from school and my own goddamn fucking parents. They made me this way. They made me hate myself more than I did before. They ruined my life!" I sobbed. Luke set the tea down and pulled me into a warm and tight embrace, "They took all the happiness that I still had left away. They turned me into a monster. I developed problems because of them. I can't take it anymore!" I continued to cry into Luke's shoulder.

"Allison, is part of the reason why you left Michael because of your...past?" Ashton asked me.

"Yeah." I whispered, "I still love him, but he deserves better than a freak like me. I don't even know why he actually stayed with me after he found out about everything-"

"Wait, you told Michael everything before me?" Luke asked, hurt leaking from his voice.

"No, he found out himself." I mumbled, "I was planning on not telling anyone."

"Oh." He mumbled. There was a few moments of silent before Ashton broke it.

"So why didn't you tell anyone? You know you can trust us and we care about you." He said

"I know, but I was scared to get hurt again. I've been hurt so many time before, I didn't want it to happen again, which is what happened with Michael. I was scared that he'd find someone better than be and then leave me. I broke it off with him before he could hurt me." I said.

"Allison, Michael would never hurt you. He didn't always fit in at school, so he knows how it is to be hurt. But look at where he is now." Luke explained. I then suddenly remember what Michael showed me that day he found out about my stuff.

"Oh my god." I said out loud suddenly.

"What?" Luke asked confused.

"I can't leave, Michael. Oh my god, I'm such a complete idiot! He understands me and I just left him like a selfish bitch. He needs me. Someone actually needs me." I rambled.

"What are you talking about?" Ashton asked me.

"I've finally solved the puzzle to my problems. I need Michael in my life. He makes me happy, and I do the same for him. Michael and I were destined to safety pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together."