Dark Poetry

Before

Even before I leave
You start to avoid me
Start to prepare for when I do leave
Don't pick up when I call
Ignore my text
What will you do next
Forget I was your friend
Leave me when I need you most
What happens when I'm really gone
When you can't see me
Does that even cross your mind
It surely crosses mine
You won't be able to choose
Choose to remember I'm still here
I'll actually be gone
How does that make you feel
Or do you not care about me
Was I ever your friend
If you don't wanna spend our time left
Together having fun like before
When I'm gone what will you do
Cry about me or forget I exist
If you don't care then probably forget
Why is the truth so hurtful
I know what you will do
Even if you don't think so
You will forget about me
Not remember who I am when I call
Delete our text
I just wish I could forget you too
Not have to deal with all the pain Losing people I love and care for
You think you are suffering
Just losing a friend or two
Well guess what
I'm losing everyone
I'll be all alone
Maybe even forever
Why make friends if it hurts
All they bring is pain and sorrow
If you know this why make friends
They only rip your heart into pieces
Leave you crying in the dark
All alone no matter what
You may think we are forever
But our friendship can't be eternal
Especially with the way you are
Not caring that our time is limited
Ignoring me most of the time
What happened to you
You picked up instantly
Always wanted to hang
But after the news you changed
Just tell me if you don't want to hurt
I don't want to either
But it will hurt us both if it is like this
You cutting me out without telling me
This hurts me more than you saying
You can't handle the pain
Of losing a friend
I don't know if I'll last
Will I ever recover from you
Do you know how much you hurt me
Obviously not if you do this
Just tell me and I'll understand
Ignoring me leaves me two choices
Keep trying and hurt even more
Or stop and ignore you too
How would you feel if I ignore you
You'll see how I felt
Unless you don't care about me
Tell the truth or hurt me more
I'm already hurting so make it worse
So before I go
Tell me what you mean.