This Is It • Meanie

14장

"W-what do you want to talk about?"

Hanbin swallowed his orange juice nervously, looking at his ex-boyfriend and opened his mouth.

"I want to talk about..... Us."

Jinhwan gripped his cup tightly, nodding his head slowly as he looked down at the wooden table, avoiding eye contact with the younger male.

The other slowly reached out for the older's empty hand on the table, holding his hand carefully as if it's fragile.

"Look at me, Jinhwan-ah."

The older felt a spark ran through his heart when he felt the touch that he had been wanting to feel, and he couldn't help but hide the smile which came out unexpectedly. He looked up at his ex, but the expression on his face made him blush a little.

"I really missed you..."

Hanbin had a determined look on his face, which caught the older off-guard.

"Would you want to explain to me about what happened? That caused us to become like this?"

Jinhwan nodded his head, his eyes tearing as he reminisce in his head of the incident, which caused a shiver to run through his small body.

"I... I didn't cheat on you, H-hanbin-ah.. I have never, ever thought of doing such a thing to someone I truly love. I was drunk that day, and I was lured into hooking up with someone I didn't know!"

Jinhwan took a deep breath, "It felt so wrong, yet I couldn't do anything about it because I was too drunk! I'm sorry I pained you, for ruining this relationship.. I just-"

By then, he was already crying in front of his ex-boyfriend, who carefully wiped his tears away.

"-we were so perfect, like magic.. But because of me, what happened to us? Seeing that painful look on your face when I see you, or happened to walk pass by you, just makes me so.. Suffocated. I couldn't breathe, due to the face that my loved one is hurting because of me.."

"Now that we're not in University together, the guilt swallows me everyday when I see your face everywhere on my phone, inside my room. The pain I'm feeling too, drowns me."

Jinhwan squeezed the younger's hand and looked into his eyes with his bottom lip trembling, "I love you, Hanbin-ah. I truly do."

And that just made Hanbin swallow down a little bit of his pride.

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Hey you guys! I'm so sorry for not updating frequently even though it's school holiday!!

To let you guys know...

I might be deleting this account and disappear from the WATTPAD world :")

I'm still thinking about my final decision, since there are many things that makes me want to stay and continue writing these stories.

I'm so sorry, once again.

The final decision will be released in Chapter 17 :)

-Mimi