This Is It • Meanie

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"-we have around a month and 4 days left."

"Well yeah, that's true that our group is lagging behind but we have to think about Seokmin's situation too."

Furrowing his eyebrows slightly, he listened on to the conversation held in the room with his eyes still closed, slowly gaining consciousness.

"What do we do then?"

"We'll just choreograph the whole piece first and teach him when he gets better!"

They're talking about me?

He heard footsteps coming towards him and he pretended as if he was still asleep, not wanting them to notice that he was listening to them.

"Seokmin hyung? You're awake, aren't you?!"

The male froze and opened his eyes slowly, and was greeted by Chan's bright smile. The latter was leaning from the side, he was probably there since he was hospitalised- wait what.

Chan gave him a cup of plain water with a straw, letting him drink some to relieve the pain in his throat before speaking up. Taking it back from the male, the younger looked at him in anticipation after placing the cup down on the table.

"I-i'm not... Dead?" His voice was rusty and soft, making him winced a little bit from hearing it. Chan's wide smile softened into a thin line and he release a big breath.

"Do you really want to leave me alone in this cruel world? Don't you love me, hyung?"

Seokmin opened his mouth to say something in response but Chan sighed, which made him stop himself from interrupting him.

"I red all your letters, word by word. Why didn't you tell me that you are in love with me? You knew how much I appreciate you, how much I treasure you. Wouldn't that be enough for you to think that... I also love you? Seokmin hyung?"

His eyes were glassy and the tears were threatening to fall in the dead silence. Never mind that the others were watching them, because everyone should know that the feelings between the two are mutual.

And I'll use you as a warning sign,
that if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind.

Seokmin stared into the other's eyes longingly, expressing multiple emotions. The other members left one by one, slowly as they gave the two privacy in the ward room.

And I found love where it wasn't supposed to be.

He looked down, breaking the eye contact and sat up with his legs crossed. The other male slowly went onto the bed and sat down in front of him with his legs crossed.

Right in front of me.

The younger latter grabbed the older's hands and softly caressed it with his thumb, moving closer to him in each minute.

Talk some sense to me.

"You are my everything, hyung. I love you so so much. I can't live without you, I can't survive. So why are you hurting the both of us? I saw that you were perfect, and so I loved you. Then I saw that you were not perfect and I love you even more!"

He moved onto Seokmin's lap gently and lead the latter's arms around his waist, before placing his own hands on the male's shoulders. Nearing his head closer to the other, Chan's eyes moved down from staring into Seokmin's eyes to his lips.

"Will you be my boyfriend, hyung?" He looked up again with a gentle smile, making Seokmin snapped out of his negative mind.

Seeing his dear one in front of him, so close to him. It made him feel... Full. The fear of not being loved disappear into thin air, and his lips slowly formed a wide smile.

"I should be asking that, right? I love you so much. Will you be mine then?"

And before their lips connected, Chan giggled and let out a breathy yes!

When their lips were pressed together, the older one tightened his arms around the other and his mind was clouded with Chan, only him.

It was perfect, the way their lips fitted and the innocence in the moment made Seokmin go crazy. He knew the younger wasn't much experienced in the kissing part, but the latter knew how to make him feel right.

Biting gently on his bottom lip, Chan whimpered softly as he felt hands trailing down from his waist. Seokmin growled at the sound the younger made and pulled away before he could devour the latter.

"Fuck, I can't hold myself back if you make that sound."

"It was meant for you to not - giggles -hold back, hyung!"