This Is It • Meanie

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I'm listening to ZE:A Breathe as I write this aye~ Oh yah, remember to support Dongjun's (if you know him) new drama and of course Taehyung's in the near future ^^

When he was told that Seokmin had attempted suicide, he felt like his breath was taken away. Jihoon clearly remembered what the latter had told him before, and maybe it was partially his fault that this had happened.

If he has told anyone about it, this incident could have been prevented. If he tried to talk him out of it, everyone wouldn't be wide awake and sobbing for the latter at fucking 1am.

"I would have been dead by now if there isn't one small hope in me that someone would trust me. But seeing from your reaction...... It was really nice to talk to you, Jihoon, for once."

The producer had been staying alone in his and Soonyoung's dorm, and he had no idea where the other sleeps at but, when he was forced to stop listening to music for the sake of his mind by the loud bangings on the door, he was greeted by an unusual Taehyung.

Taehyung who didn't smile nor jump around with a grin. But he was on the verge of crying, his face pointed out that something unfortunate had happened and his eyes expressed that he was feeling pain.

"Get your valuables and jacket hyung. Seokmin hyung... I believe he had jumped from the rooftop and we're waiting for the ambulance... N-now."

The first person that he had saw crying was Chan. The poor young guy had his knees hugged to his chest and he was sobbing into them with Jimin beside him, cooing comforting words with a gentle warm smile.

They were all gathered at the hospital outside the ER (Emergency Room) and from the corner of his eye, he could see Wonwoo pulling Mingyu away from the group and led him to somewhere else. Maybe to have a talk since they need it.

The latter took a seat away from the group, keeping quiet as he didn't wanted to attract attention. He really didn't wanted to meet Soonyoung, but another person caught him out of the corner of his eye.

"Hey Jihoon."

"....Hey."

Yunhyeong settled down beside him and showed him a small smile before offering a can of caffeine, to which the smaller man took it with both hands and thanked him in return with his dimples showing.

Taking a few sips quietly, Jihoon stared down at the ground as awkwardness took over the atmosphere between them. They have never really talked personally unless it's music-related, so they didn't really know how to talk about a certain topic besides music.

And at a situation they were in together with their other friends, it's harder to speak up because of the mixed emotions they were feeling at the same time.

Well, Yunhyeong decided on a topic which he thought that should be discussed on.

"Soonyoung had a panic attack just now."

Jihoon froze midway as he was about to drink the coffee, looking at the other with a questioning expression. The other didn't face him though, he just continued staring to the front with a straight face.

"He... Was the one who found Seokmin bleeding on the ground and I believe the amount of emotions that hit him at that moment made him lose his sanity, you know?"

Yeah, that's the Soonyoung I know.

"But what shocked us was when he chanted, repeatedly, something really... weird. He said, I shall quote, I'm sorry I can't do anything. I'm a bad person, I'm sorry... Like along those lines, yeah?"

Jihoon nodded in understanding, letting him continue with his words.

"What I'm worried and curious of is whether there is a possibility that he's still getting abused by his parents. He looks like he has been hiding something ever since we started practicing for our upcoming performance."

"But he told me that the police are watching them.. I don't think he's..."

Yunhyeong sighed softly and nodded, "I know. I'm talking about him getting abused mentally, Jihoon-ah. And when you started avoiding him, that could have build up more on his depression. It is a possibility and I'm not assuming anything but...."

"But.. I should really talk to him?"

The taller male looked at him with the same smile from earlier and nodded, "Yes. Do it today or he'll get hurt more."

"He's still trembling from seeing Seokmin on the verge of death. Soonyoung is breaking already, so please do something about it! You love him, don't you?"

I don't know about my feelings for him anymore. I'm sorry.

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It's like 2:30am and I'm writing this :/ (I only post this later on so yeah, my wifi at that time wasn't working so ;;)

My body clock is literally fucked up, thank god I cancelled my part-time shift for later in the morning or I'll be dying.

So like apparently, I don't know whether I should make SoonHoon officially break up or keep them together with Soonyoung going on cute dates with Jihoon to keep the relationship strong?

And I might make Chanwoo break up with Seungcheol, and have Cheollie end up with someone else!

I am also unsure of whether I should make Seokmin die in this fanfic? But I think that's cruel, so it's just a low possibility of about 25%?

So yes give me your opinions, or I'll make this fanfiction totally bloody and saddening. Though, that won't probably happen because I'm expecting to have a Book 3 in the future *coughs*

Okai bye bye~

-Mimi