This Is It • Meanie

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Sprinting out of his dorm room, he dialed Seokmin's number on his phone with speed, calling him again and again as he tried to find the lad.

Jonghwa was helping him by calling the members of the Anime Club to ask whether they could have seen Seokmin just a few moments ago.

When he reached the top floor of the building (it's like the 10th floor), he hurriedly looked around in the dark to spot anyone familiar, but he didn't. Instead of attempting to get into contact with Seokmin, he called Soonyoung who would be still awake at this moment.

"Yes-"

"-HYUNG! HYUNG! PLEASE HELP ME FIND SEOKMIN HYUNG! I JUST, I HAVE A FEELING HE DID SOMETHING REALLY SERIOUS TO HIMSELF TODAY AND I CAN'T REACH HIM THROUGH CALLS OR TEXTS!"

"Seokmin? Why? What's wrong?"

When Chan gave a reply, he sounded like he was on the verge of crying and it made Soonyoung wide awake as if he wasn't taking a nap on his bed just now.

"Hyung, he gave me a letter and indirectly said that he was going to kill himself.. Please... Please help me wake the other members up and tell them to find Seokmin hyung.. I'm worried hyung, I can't live without him.."

"..I'm on it. Continue searching, all of us will be helping you in just a few."

And he was right, all the other members except Mingyu and Jihoon, were searching for the missing lad after a few minutes. Soonyoung and Wonwoo joined Chan and they decided to head for the back of the Domitory Building quickly.

They spilt up as it was actually quite dark and big, so they could clear the area quickly. Soonyoung went to the left end alone, which was below where he would hung out with Seokmin on the rooftop.

"Seokmin?" He called out bravely, switching on the torchlight on his phone and flashing it everywhere. And that's when he spotted a figure on the ground miles away.

He approached it carefully but as he got closer, he quickened his pace when recognised the face of the figure. "Yah! Seokmin? What are you-"

At that moment, he finally saw the blood oozing from the lad's head onto the grass. The man had his eyes closed and he looked like he wasn't breathing, anymore.

"Fuck, Seokmin!" He ran to the male and kneeled on the ground beside the body, checking the breathing of the lad. Nothing.

He panicked and shouted for the others, his eyes tearing up as he tried to do CPR on the male. Chan and Wonwoo came running after a few seconds, and they were shocked by what they saw. The younger lad kneeled beside of Soonyoung and replaced him to do the CPR properly while Wonwoo called for the ambulance.

Soonyoung sat back with his heart pounding quick, and his hands trembled with soft whimpers leaving his mouth. He hugged himself and rocked back and forth, trying to calm himself down but it lead to no progression.

When the others finally arrived at the scene, Hanbin went to go search for the school's dean together with Donghyuk and Minghao. Junhui and Hansol went to Soonyoung to soothe him while some of the others went to go assist Chan. The remaining of them went to go look for Mingyu and Jihoon as the ambulance made their way.

Wonwoo stared sadly at Soonyoung who was having a panic attack, he couldn't do anything to help him because he had no experience. None of them knew how to help the lad, only Jihoon knew. But he wasn't there.

"Come on! Hyung, breathe! Please breathe for me.." Chan cried hopelessly as he compressed on the male's chest a few times before checking his breathing once again.

Losing hope, he let Jiwon do the routine with a painful scream. He cried into his palms with his head hurting, making Junhoe pat his back calmly. Some of them were already crying quietly, while some tried to hold in their tears.

They didn't wanted to lose a member, never. Seokmin was like a brother to all of them, he was special for being so cheerful everyday without no fail. Even though he caused the incident, they wanted to forgive him because they knew he didn't wanted to cause any harm. He meant so much to everyone, he doesn't deserve all this hurting.

"I should have known... I'm sorry, hyung. I'm sorry..." Chan whispered loud enough for everyone around him to hear, and their ears perked up at that.

It was like a miracle, Jiwon saw Seokmin's index finger moved and that's when he could release his breath as if he was holding it.

"I saw his finger move!! He's breathing now!! Just keep a look out for him," Jiwon smiled reassuringly to Chan, who tried to wipe his big fat tears in relief. Jimin side-hugged Chan with a soft smile, tears still running down his cheeks, soothing him with positive words.

"I'm sorry I can't do anything. I'm a bad person, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm bad.." Soonyoung chanted softly as he kept on crying, making Junhui and Hansol speechless. Seungkwan decided to take the matter into his hands as he kneeled in front of Soonyoung with a gentle smile.

"Hyung? Seokmin hyung is alright and you did the best you could! You found him, didn't you? Good job, hyung! You're not a bad person, never was and never will be. Jihoon hyung is going to be so proud of you when he knows about this, am I right hyung?"

Soonyoung nodded his head, his rocking slowing down and his crying went to a stop after Seungkwan made his way beside him and hugged him to soothe him down. "You did such a good job hyung, Seokmin hyung will be so damn proud of you when he hears what you did."

The lad remained quiet in response and he leaned his head on the other's shoulder with several sniffles. Even though he wasn't crying anymore nor panicking, his heart still hurt. Lies. Jihoon hates me. Seokmin would laugh at me. Lies, everyone is such a liar.

Lies, I'm such a disappointment yet everyone tries to hide it.

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Double update yo. Anyone proud of me? I think this escalated too fast but I believe the plot is going well :p

Thank you for reading~ Honestly I cried while writing this chapter oops.

-Mimi