Falling like a snow storm....

Chapter 17- dream to reality..

Ok so the whole thing with my last dream, about Cole being an a balaclava...

Well today at fire cadets; Tony out leader said 'it's fine to wear balaclava's under helmets' this actually really worried me in the sense I had that dream about balaclava..

It's like parts of my dreams are being related to life! I now worry for my future!

What if little sections of each dream come true. I wouldn't be able to cope. How would I continue. My chest pains would increase. I would be thinking all the time. I am already not eating, and when I do eat I throw up after it..

We did do ladders at cadets today and whilst doing 'leg locks' Theo asked everyone for a high five! First time I had touched his hand in a long time. First time since I started like him. It felt right even if it was only a second or two.. Perfect.

Anyone have any suggestions? Other than don't dream. If I could not dream; trust me I wouldn't. I am currently making a record of my dreams and hopefully I can piece them all together.. To make a bit more sense.

Also should I go to the doctors about my chest pains when I think/see Theo? Also about me throwing up after I eat something? Anyone? Advice would be hugely grateful and accepted.