Falling like a snow storm....

Chapter 20- perfection!

Perfect. There he was. Baggy, denim jeans, a burgundy pair of vans, t-shirt and grey, hooded grey jacket with short sleeves. I adore him..

His hair in that little quiff he has, his blue eyes! His little laugh and smile...

There he was on the Astro turf playing football, as the ball got kicked over the fencing towards us. I thought I would be nice and throw it back over. Theo shouted 'cheers' and then his mate shouted over 'we need two more people, bring yourself and a mate'. I hesitated. Me and Lois went over, Me on Coles team. Lois on Theo's (I had that slight bit of jealousy). Until I was running with the ball and Theo came behind me to try tackle. He put his arm around me and said 'well played' I passed the ball to Will who passed it back and then Theo tried to tackle it from in between my feet. I said to Theo 'good luck' until Lois shouted over 'you might as well get together already'. Cole shouted 'yeah, you act like a couple anyway'. Me and Theo looked at each other and smiled. Theo then started saying 'we can give it a try' I just smiled and laughed 'ok'. Passed the ball to Cole who then scored. Theo then said 'well done beautiful' (bless him)...

Now if this was true it would have been great but no it was another one of my silly little dreams.. I just want to cry!!

These dreams are not helping my day to day life at all..

What also doesn't help is today that dream when the ball got kicked over the fence towards us. I stopped my self kicking it over. Why?! What's going on with reality and dreams! Why are they all relating?

My life is not going well at all these days!! :(