Disguise♔ z.m

Twenty Nine

There may or may not be a dirty scene, but if there is, I had warned you all!

Sorry Zora shippers, but hold on, their moment is coming rather soon :) xx

LORA LORA LORA LORA (pumps fist into the air)

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I ponder upon the thoughts of the endless possibilities that might come up if I do get past this door. His hand has a grip over the handle, pulling the door back, and gesturing his vacant hand for me to walk in first. I nod and awkwardly step forward, still hesitating for walking any further.

A little panic-fear grows in my mind when the thoughts of Zayn begin to develop. Not every memory of yesterday's stayed, but I briefly remember the way he took care of me when I felt like throwing up. Liam appears by my side and holds my hand, making us advance to where the group of people were dancing in front of the wide mirror, reflecting their mobile bodies. Esmée is at the peak, lifting her upper arm and half way squatting. She is showing them some sort of dance and I still can't believe I am here after all that happened.

Have I made a great mistake by forgiving Liam?

It was just a game, he said, and I believed. Why do I have to make things so hard? He did explain it meant nothing to him over and over again. I am not willing to lose someone so understanding and compassionate.

While Liam greets his group, my mind wanders away. The outer portals of my mind were exploding with thoughts and I couldn't stop thinking about what could have happened if I actually ended up leaving Liam. It has just been a week, I am conscious of that, but I want more than just a week of his hugs and kisses. I want him for months and I don't understand how I can let a silly game come in the way of the great future.

"Hey," the voice startles me. I am compelling myself to pay more attention to what the fiery red girl has to say. I notice her lips part but I beat her to it.

"Oh, Esmée," I sigh loudly, catching up with my unstable breath.

"Look, I am sorry about yesterday. I never meant to make you feel upset and nearly ruin your relationship with Liam."

"You remembered what happened?" I surprisingly ask.

"Not really, Liam told me."

Should Liam tell her everything?

"Oh." I wasn't good with hiding emotions, but before it was too late and awkward, I speak. "It's alright, anyway. We all drank and stupid things happen."

"Ruining what you and Liam have is not stupid at all. I still apologize for how childish I was for daring that. I might not remember but it is always better to apologize before you do end up having a grudge."

"I will never have a grudge." I assure her.

"Thank you," she delightfully smiles and wanders away back to her tired gang.

No one ever said forgiving was easy, but I can't just drop all that I have built and blame him for the slight pain that is cutting through my skin.

"Nora?" He calls.

"Yes, Liam." My arms were crossed, my face was plain, my sight was taken, but I couldn't endure the innocent pain.

"Answer me this. Are you doubting what we have?"

I didn't have the strength to look at him. He knew how sensitive I was, and the kiss had began to break through me.

His hand touches my shoulder, and I take a step back, though my pose was no different.