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RAINBOW AFTER THE RAIN
"Eat first." Mahinang sabi ni Axel sabay haplos sa braso ko.
Axel explained to me when we're going back here in Manila a week ago, about what happened when I'm in Mindanao and about his plan. It made all clear to me. And I can say that all the heartaches and loneliness are all worth.
It's all true that you cannot have the real happiness just in a blink or by snapping with your finger. I thought before that happiness can come to you without any drama with it, but come to think of it? Kahit nga 5 years old ay dumadaan na sa mga drama sa buhay.
All that's happenings are my foundation for my love to Axel and I saw him love me, fighting for us, his true nature, his effortless goodness. Though he said, he cannot show that to everyone.
Wala naman akong problema doon kasi kahit pa mukhang kakain ito ng tao pag nagagalit, suplado, nakataas palagi ang sulok ng labi at palaging Bombay kung maningil sa kleyente ay mas lalo ko lamang siyang minamahal.
His every move matters to me that even a single hour passed I became restless.
He is my gravity. Iyon bang nagtitimbang ng lahat para maging okay ako.
At first I think I'm acting strange, so I even go to psychiatrist to ask a help but the doctor seems amused by my problem. Umuwi akong naguguluhan at tinawagan pa si Jasmine para magtanong, pero ang bruha kong kaibigan ay tinawanan lang ako.
She said, You're in love stupid!
Hindi ako naniwala sa kaibigan kaya kay Axel ko sinabi. Nahiya nga akong magsabi, kasi naman...nakakahiya kayang sabihin na, you want to see him every fucking minute, you want him to just beside you, you want to take care everything when I comes to him, you want him to be happy, everything that concerns about him I want to know and I want to care.
Hindi tumawa si Axel noong sinabi ko sa kanya iyon bagamat ay pumugay ang mga berdeng mata nito at hinapit ako.
He said, Don't worry love...if that's a sickness then we're both have. Ganoon din kasi ako sayo.
Kinilig naman ako dahil doon at dahil sa kilig ko ay nahalikan ko siya noon at humantong kami sa pag iisa.
Nagkausap na kami ng mga kaibigan ko at naging magdamag ang pag uusap na iyon. Mabuti nalang at hindi nagalit si Axel dahil hindi ako nakatabi sa kanya sa pagtulog noong gabing iyon.
I had to be honest to my friends that time, they deserved to know and my decisions right. Iyak kami ng iyak habang nag kukwento ako sa kanila, the worst that happens when they heard that I was dead. Sumakit nga ang braso ko sa kahahampas nila pero hindi ko na ininda noong naging maayos kami.
Kyros even visited me in our house, I mean, where Axel and I are living. Lumabas ang pagiging bakla nito dahil umiyak din ito ng todo sa harap ko. He's feeling guilty because he let me go that day but also relieve when he found out that I am still kicking.
Na e-kwento nga niya na sinulong daw niya si Axel sa opisina nito at nasuntok pa. Hindi ako makapaniwala pero noong tinanong ko ang asawa ko ay napatawa ako ng malakas. Gosh! Si bakla nanununtok? Eh crush pa naman noon si Axel!
All are going smooth for the past week but my father is still in the hospital bed. Like now, I'm staring at him for I don't know how long. Lumambot ang puso ko noong sinabi ni Axel kung bakit nagka heart attack si dad at hindi na nagising.
"Love." Napalundag ako noong marinig ko ang seryoso nitong boses.
Tumayo ako at hinarap ang asawa ko. I touched his face down to his neck, he closed his eyes and take a sharp breathed.
