Hello Perfection [Joey Graceffa Fan-Fic]

Chapter 25 - Maia makes everything better

I looked at the screen of messages. people ive never heard of from different countries want to be my friend?

I scrolled through them, only reading a couple when I stumbled across one from Zoe and one from Ashton, people from school.

'Omg! how's LA? we should meet up sometime and I could get to know your friends or something! love ya, miss ya xx' from Zoe Daly.

'You know I've always liked you. you're so nice and pretty. when will you come back home? we should talk more!' from ash.

"These your friends from back at school?" Sawyer smiled looking at the messages.

"Friends? more like bully's or enemy's . They hated me at school. everyone did." I said. I did a 'disbelief laugh' and shook my head.

"Yeah, that's the shit that gets annoying. You don't know who to trust." he said styling his hair.

I continued to look though my stuff until sawyer and I stopped to listen to Shane and Joey. Shane was starting to yell.

"Who is this bitch!" he yelled. "she looks like she was thrown out from a whore school or something. why the fuck would you let a bitch in your video?"

"Shh Shane, what if she sees this." Joey said quieter but we could still hear.

"Well the little faggot, Shae? she can go the fuck away from you. you're mine jojo. If she goes anywhere near you She can go kill herself. Shoey is real." He yelled.

I shut the laptop then got off the bed. Sawyer looked to me and gave an apologetic smile. my eyes started to tear up and I walked down stairs to see the boys looking at the camera.

"Ohh shit..." Shane said looking at me, i was crying.

"Well fuck you. Fuck both of you. I don't need this shit. I came here to get away from it." I walked over to the door.

"Shae, wait. he didnt mean it, it was for the video." Joey grabbed my wrist as I was about to leave through the front door.

"Well if that's what you're like in videos, I don't want to be around you. it's called being a dick. heard of one of them? well its you. now fuck off and let go of me." I pulled away from his tight grip.

As I walked down the path I felt joeys eyes still on me. he didn't bother to say anymore. he obviously didn't want me back.

As I heard the door shut, I turned around and no one was there. I walked down the street crying, trying to wipe away every tear.

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I managed to kick a stone all the way into town. by then my face had no sign of tears or hurt so I walked into Starbucks and ordered my normal.

I ordered a caramel frapé and sat down on the only free couch.

"Hey, Shay! I didn't expect you to be in here!"

I turned around to see Maia.

"What's up. You don't look happy." She pouted.

"Joey and I just had a fight. Kinda." I whispered.

"Aw, honey. Are you okay?" She sat down next to me and rubbed my back.
A tear rolled down my cheek.

"I don't know." I shook my head and played with the ends of my hair.

"Uhh, Caramel Frapé for Grace?" the attractive worker called out looking around.

I stuck my hand up and he spotted me. he walked over and noticed me crying.

"Oh babe, whats wrong?" he said sitting on the chair opposite the couch.

"Boy problems." Maia said to him for me.

"Well guys are shit, let me tell you that." he smiled and looked at me in the eyes. "Is Grace your real name?"

"No, it's Shayla, or Shae for short." I looked away from him. "Why?"

"Well, Shayla, you should call me sometime. you seem very nice." he smiled and slipped a piece of paper under my frapé then walked back to the counter.

"Well over Joey yet?" Maia winked. "he was fucking sexy, got for it girl."

She got up and went back to the counter. she talked to the same guy and ordered a drink. when she got it she gave me a little wave then left.

My boob vibrated, it was my phone. I looked at it, it was from Maia.

'You want a gay friend? :p go talk to him ;)'

'Attractive guys are always gay, I'm 100% sure! ;p' I replied.

I sucked up the last of my frapé and went back up to the counter.

"You better call me. ill cry if you don't." he winked.

"Sometime." I smiled. "sometime."

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I got home about 10 minutes after that. I went inside and straight up to my room. I took off the gross dress and put on short shorts and a small crop top.

*du du doooo de du du, da de doooo da du du* my phone rang. it was Joey.

I pressed the red decline button and threw my phone to the bed of my bed. I looked up to the wall and watched my clock tick.

*du du doooo de du du, da de doooo da du du* my phone rang again. Joey, again.

*du du doooo de du du, da de doooo da du du*

"What do you want..." I said harshly into the phone.

"Shae I'm sorry, Shane's a dick, Shoey does not exist, he's gone now and were not putting up the video. he's always so judgemental and very rude but that's only because he was harshly bullied a few years ago. he said he was very sorry when he left and felt so bad he left a note for you. it's on our bench and I haven't seen it yet. I miss you already Shae and its only been 1/2 and hour. I'm really sorry and I want you to come back. maybe not now. I wouldn't expect that, I you want me back, I don't mind, I deserve what I deserve and I just want you too be happy. cheesy as it sounds. I love you Shae and you're the first girl I think I love and I don't know what to do about it sShae I'm scared. I'm on my bed crying and shaking, I'm so sorry...." he cried. the phone call ended. I'm not sure if it was him or me that ended the call but it ended.

I sat there and threw my phone, this time on the ground. I curled up on the bed and cried. cried the most since I left home. I forgot how much I loved crying.
I looked around the room and saw a pair of fingernail scissors on the dresser. I got up and grabbed them. I examined them then did something that I probably shouldnt have.

The blood on them put me in shock. it felt... good? I didn't do it again though. I placed them on the bedside table and watched the one drip of blood fall down my arm.

What am I doing to myself.