Little Secret (One Direction/Niall Horan)

Chapter 6-How I feel

                                                         ASHLIN’S POV

              After talking to Niall for a total of 10 minutes I said I had to go home and get my homework done.  I really did.  My walk home was quick and I was extremely grateful for that.  I walked upstairs into my room and did my two pages of homework.  I changed and went straight to sleep.  I was so tired.

*next morning*

             I wake up with knots in my hair and crazy eyes.  All my makeup is smudged underneath my eyes.  Shit.  I don't like this.  I run some shower water and hop in letting the water work at my tense muscles.  This fells so nice.  After my shower I hop into some jean shorts and a white tank top.  I side braided my hair and put little makeup on.

            I look into the mirror and scowl.  I hate my appearance.  Deciding it wasn’t healthy to be looking at myself anymore I walk off into my hallway.  I hear my mother’s snoring that should be sounded with my dad’s but wasn’t.

            I feel tears line my eyes, but I get rid of them and put on a fake smile so I have some more fake confidence.  To be honest the only time I have had confidence was in sports. They gave me a boost I never usually have.  I grab my backpack and get a text.  I open it and smile.  A real smile that I never have anymore.  It was Niall.

‘hey love x’

‘hiii!’

‘wht r u up 2?’

‘walkin to school’

‘that seems very interesting’

‘well I like that u think it is.  Anyway wht r u up 2?’

‘making some tea.’

‘that seems very interesting’   I text him back trying to mock him.  This isn't going to end well.

‘do I suspect ur mocking me?’

‘maybe, maybe not’

           ‘well if u r I might have toi find u n tickle u?’  I laugh at his little typo.  But it was awkward because was at my locker and everybody stared at me.  But little did he know that I wasn’t ticklish.  Sucks to sucks.

‘but the thing is I’m not ticklish.  Ahaha #SWERVE’   I couldn’t help myself not using the little hashtag trying to imitate a hipster. 

‘but that’s like not liking hamburgers.’  I shake my head walking into class.  I hate thinking about greasy, fat foods. 

‘well who said I like hamburgers.’

‘u have to it’s a rule.’

‘well im following it’

‘YAY ur the slightest human.’

‘oh thanks I like being human.’

‘me too it’s a good thing’

‘yeah well class is starting PEACE OUT GURL SCOUT!’

‘bye babe.  Text me during free period’

         My heart flutters at the thought of him saying babe to me in his Irish accent.  Oh and Niall I’ll text you during math.  Which is about right now.

            I start texting him which he answers instantly.  I feel some breathing on my shoulder and look at Quinn.  She is staring at my phone.  When she looks up at me her eyes went wide and then proceeds to wink and raise her eyebrows at the same time making me blush like crazy.  Quincy, you have no idea darling.  No idea how hard I am falling for Niall.  I never feel like this for someone.  Except last year on a less extreme way.

           I had a boyfriend for three years named Alec.  Turns out he was a cheating bastard who had cheating with my ex-best friend, Oliva for 1 out of the 3 years we had been dating.  And now they were the most popular couple in school.  Well kinda sorta in a way. 

             Alec made me 4 out of 10 of how special and important I felt.  Niall makes me feel 10,000 out of 10.  And I’ve known him for two days.  He is something special and I already know I can’t let him get away from me this time.  But I know I’ll have trust issues right off the bat. 

          Wait, why am I thinking like this?  He probably thinks I’m just a friend.  I mean he’ll forget about me when he leaves Massachusetts and back on tour.  He has thousands of other pretty girls he can choose from. 

            “Ashlin?  Answer this please.”  I look up and see that Mr. Lockey and the rest of class were staring at me.  Shit.

            “I’m not finished the problem yet.”  I blurt without looking at the board. 

            “Well there is no problem on the board.”  I look up and well, there really wasn’t.  The rest of the class was bright trying to hold back their laughter.  Damn I really messed up this time. 

            “Can you repeat the question please?”  I say with my best charming smile.

            “Of course Ashlin.  I’ll repeat it in detention after school today.”  He says with the same exact smile I had. 

            “Fuck.”  I mutter.

            “What was that Miss. Carsey?”   

            “Oh nothing!  Just so excited for detention later.”  I say with complete sarcasm laced in my voice.

            He just nods and goes back to class.  I guess I can’t text Niall for right now.  I tell him I have to go and he says it was fine.  Yay were still on good terms unlike me and any boys I ever talk to.

***********************************************************************************************************Hey guys!  This is going to be a long one today.  So I told you I wasn’t probably going to update on Sunday and I didn’t because this weekend was just a mess.  So Saturday I woke up at like 6:00 AM for a game at 8.  So we get to the field where I was supposed to play.  The game had started and during the second half I pushed a girl over, (I’m defense), and as she fell somehow she kicked my ankle.  I could barely stand on it.  As soon the ball was out of play, I was called out and praise the lord because I limped the whole way there.  I had tears starting to come and I never cry so it was interesting.  When the game was over someone from my team picked me up and brought me to my parents.  I took off my equipment and it looked like I had two ankles put together.  It was bad.  So I had to sit out of my second and last game of that day.  The next day I had three games I played in and my ankle still hurts on Tuesday.  So I skipped practice tonight and I’m making sure I’m updating today.  Okay enough of my rant.  Thanks love you.  And I know it’s kinda short.  It’s getting longer it’s just how much time I have to write that day.

Bye guys. Xx

She may be confused about a lot of things but she knows the only time she’s truly happy is when she’s with him

(two quotes today!!! <33)

When she’s right no one remember, when she’s wrong no one forgets.

Edited- December 18th, 2013