The Ultimate Love

R u ok??

I reallllly dont like when teacher are like "hey r u ok?"

Just because I'm not talking and im reading doesn't mean im not ok

Uhhh how embarrassing

Story:

I was sitting at my desk with my hair in my hand just chillin with my head leaning on that hand

Scrolling through my library like list debating on which book to read

Then i was laughin in my head b/c i like how u need doses of being alone

Then apparently i looked stressed or sad and this teacher in the hallway calls, wait no let me rephrase that, YELLS, yes that sounds better, my name twice and then i have all these people lookin at me and she asks/yells "r u ok"

I just look at her and just laugh it off and just gave her a thumbs up and said i was ok and she uhhh was like "r u surrre?" Im thinking 'just leave me freaking alone lady and stop embarrassing me' but i just smiled and said i was defiantly ok. But then she just laughed and said i just look like i was thinking hard.

Well that ticked my nerves and i felt depressed and wanted to just go home after that

Then i have all these prissy girls lookin at me for like the first time and i just want to run and hide

I dont like people lookin at me like I'm a wounded animal

So for the rest of the day i just wanted to go home and i wasn't really in the mood to talk it out with God yet

Goin through the motions again

The next day was a testing day so we sat in a room doin ACT test and i was out at 11:30

Yay!!!!

My dad brightened my week up by taking me to a sub shop and took me to this store full of out of date stuff that aren't on the market anymore and its like a warehouse full of this junk

I just felt happy again and thanked God i have my dad to help me

I had no school on monday and then i had a 1/2 day wednesday so I'm all whacked out

Story:

Before testing she asked for our phones well she collected all the phones but mine so i put it back in my purse

One dude saw me and was shocked because i can imagine thinking that little miss innocent nice girl didn't give her phone up.

They don't know me

Assuming sucks man

I wasn't hiding my phone from the teachers view either it had i in my hand facing towards her and i had it placed on my desk once too in her full view...

Idk why but I'm always overlooked and forgotten....

It kinda hurt that she didn't notice me but i didn't care she didn't take my phone

Just the underline meaning i thought up in my head just hurt

Left behind but i know God has plans for me and he's with me at all times

God help me not feel alone and offended by other people

Help my thoughts be clean too God and not feel hatred toward people

Just help me God!!!!!