One Shot (x reader)

im sorry guys..

(Will delete this after i post a oneshot)

I am tired.

I am stress.

I am scared.

I dont even know why.

Just a week ago, i lost my beloved great grandmother and i felt lost.

For some reasons, i feel like.. i have lost the motivation to write any stories.

But believe me.. im trying my best to fight it and write some stories for you guys.

I have oneshots lined up for you guys but they are not completed.

They are half complete.

Im gonna rant some stuff because i just .. i just cannot do it anymore..

I am really sick and tired of people, especially my family, saying that i am big or i have put in weight or i am fatter then my mom or whatever. As much as i want to shout or throw any 'tantrum', i just cant. I kept keeping quiet and let them say whatever they want and i would just smile thoughout the pain. It hurts.. but they dont know and dont care.

And yes.. i get it. Im fat. I just dont want anyone to rub it on my face and hurt me. This is me. Its not like i want to be like this. God has given me this body and im grateful.

I am not a suicidal so you guys dont need to worry much. But sometimes, i just want to getaway from all my problems but guess what .. this is reality, we cant run away from that. I just.. dont know what to do now. Im lost.

I wasted a lot of time thinking instead of writing. I failed you guys.

Im sorry. Ill be back soon guys..