Lost in California (Leo Howard FanFic)

Chapter 20: The Re-Awakening

[Elizabeth's POV]

After the song was played, I had put together the purpose for the spontaneous music out-break. Leo wanted me to know how much he wants to be together. How could I just ignore a gesture that big, it brought an entire crowd's attention. Meanwhile I had completely blurred out Jax. As I turned to the side of where the last moment I saw him and this time he was not there.

I went back to see if he went to sit down at the middle bomb fire spot, but there was no sign of him expect a note. The truth had been written down on paper. I really and truly like Jax; he is artistic like me, likes me a lot too, and has his rough moments but is sweet and has a big heart. However, Leo just keeps coming back into my life and no matter what I try to do to stop it, there is really no way to stop it.

I took a moment to thank Jax for the note, even though he was not there, I took a moment to admire him for writing the note so I could understand his logic. While sitting alone at the bomb fire Leo was hovering over me.

Elizabeth: "Hello, Leo."

Leo: "How did you know it was me?"

Elizabeth: "Well you asked your best friend to sing a song to indicate our relationship and the fact that I was sitting alone all vulnerable like I know how much you enjoy my company. Also I recognized the smell of the polo colon you wear."

We both laugh.

Leo: "What is that?"

He points to Jax's note.

Elizabeth: "It's a note from Jax. He had left early."

Leo: "I thought you two were a thing."

Elizabeth: "Apparently not anymore."

I waved the note that is in my hands.

Leo: "I am guessing that is because of me trying to serenade you."

Elizabeth: "Jax says , "I could never compete for you. I would fight, but I would not last. I could fight, but I could never win. It will be Leo and it will always be Leo. You may have some feelings for me, but your feelings for Leo are so strong that anything I would do would be just to past time.' "

Leo: "Wow! He sounds like one cool dude."

Elizabeth: "At first we REALLY disliked one another. Then we ended up admitting mutual feelings for one another. Then one night you arrive and tend to mess everything up. He was my only true friend I was able to make since I got here."

Leo: "Sorry. Liz I just can't help the way I feel about you. About us."

Elizabeth: "Sorry is not enough for the amount of pain you caused me. Leo, I have never felt that way until the day my dad left me alone. I have let people into my life because being alone sucks. When we were together I thought nothing would ever break us apart. But when I saw you and Olivia kissing in the theater room, my heart sank. That night I had mixed emotions and never did I believe you could make me feel so stupid. I choose you once and I got hurt, what makes you believe if I choose you again you won't hurt me again?"

Leo: "This time I understand what it would be like if I lose you again."

Elizabeth: "What if I still don't trust you? Without trust there is no us."

Leo's POV

I can't believe after all of this time that she still hasn't forgiven me. When I have came up with numerous ways to convey my love she is still unsure. Now I am unsure that the connection we have is still there or it ended when she left forever.

Leo: "Look I understand that you were extremely upset for what I did. And I have tried several times to tell you and show you that what I felt for you compare to how I feel for Olivia are totally different. I thought by now you would have forgiven me, but clearly I was wrong. You may have doubts in us because maybe you don't feel like there is an us. But I am telling that after everything I still have faith in us, in our connection that we have together. So If you believe that there is no way that you can forgive me, I think you should just tell me or else I am wasting my time trying to rekindle something that is clearly not there!"

Elizabeth could not think of a clever response. However what I did say was kind of harsh, but it is how I feel. With her I don't feel afraid for saying what could possibly be the wrong thing. I could tell her my best and worst emotions and she would not judge me. I would like to think that whatever I say she takes into consideration for my efforts and hopefully she will open her heart and realize that what she longs for is for there to be an us again.

Elizabeth: "Leo ... I am sorry if you feel like I am wasting your time. But I know you don't feel you are wasting your time. Because if so you would not still be here, sitting next to me by this campfire. The thing is that it is because I love you so much and I know that you love me a lot that we can kind of suffocate each other. I mean when I am with you I feel like I am underneath a cherry blossom cherry in spring and the beautiful red petals fall over us creating the most beautiful and romantic place that I escape to with you. And I have noticed that I have been extremely hard on you. I shouldn't complain because I did lie to you about me and my cousin's plan."

I could just sit here and listen to her talk for hours and it makes me miss her that much more.

Elizabeth: "When I moved in with my dad I thought it was going to be this great opportunity, like putting everything back into place. The funny thing is I knew deep down it was a way for me not to see you. And everyday after the move I realized that not matter how hard I try moving on, that I can never forget you."

Finally, just what I wanted to her. This is some validation that we are meant to be. Even though it is not an "I forgive you Leo", it still clarifies her feelings for me and now I know I am not only seeing something that is not really there.

Elizabeth's POV

I cannot believe I just told Leo about my whole emotional rollercoaster. Then again it was not that awkward because I needed him to here me. I don't want him to feel like he is wasting his time, because he is not. However there is still this little pit on the side of my stomach trying to give me every reason not to be with him. I just can't ignore that feeling too. Either I am not over the past or something is coming that could possibly break us.

Leo: "Well I am glad to know that I am not just wasting my time. So, what are we?"

Elizabeth: "What do you mean?"

Leo: "If you don't exactly hate me, but you don't want to get back together with me. What are we?"

Elizabeth: "Friends for now. It isn't like I don't want to get back together with you and leave the past in the past, but for some reason whether it is the past or the upcoming future, I just can't seem to shake off the tiny bit of doubt I have about us being together again."

Leo: "Don't worry, I can handle being friends for right now."