Wrecked Hearts

Thinking of You

Alice's Pov:

       Another thing I wasn't a fan of, funerals. I mean ever since my dad's death I haven't been able to look or even be near a dead body. I was hoping I wouldn't have to be near one ever again.

Yet here I was looking at my mother's peaceful face and something about it made me want to smile and cry at the same time.

       The things we take for granted can easily be taken from us. That's one thing I learned the hard way. I don't even know if I have the right to mourn over my own mother. I still feel so wrecked over everything that had happened.   

     I wish I go back in time and treated her better. I could've done better , been better. The only thing I could do know was try. Try to be a better person even if that means not being how she was anymore. 

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      Ryder's Pov:

Alice Radner, the girl who stole his heart. He couldn't stop thinking about her ever since she left to go visit her mom in the hospital. He's been waiting on a phone call or something but got nothing .

He understood thought what Alice was going through. He just wished he said 'I love you' to her but couldn't. Even if Alice made him feel something that he thought he could never feel again. He couldn't say I love you to her even if he did.

Instead of sulking on his bed he got out a camera and pushed record. Grabbing his guitar he was hoping instead of words his music would reach Alice instead when she returned.

"When your legs don't work like they used to before

And I can't sweep you off of your feet

Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?

Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70

And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23

And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways

Maybe just the touch of a hand

Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day

And I just wanna tell you I am

So, honey, now

Take me into your loving arms

Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars

Place your head on my beating heart

I'm thinking out loud

Maybe we found love right where we are"

When Ryder was finished he got up and turned off the camera. Confidence was never Ryder's strong suite but Alice made him do stuff that was a little out of his character.  Next time he would see Alice he was going to tell her he loved her.

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Alice's Pov:

I would hardly speak after the funeral happened. It's like something inside me got all tied up and was crushing me. I could barely sleep without flashes of the car accident that I thought I was over of was coming back. All the horrible fights mom and me had was feeling my head to.

As promised, Emily stayed with me. Going to college and managing her little sister must of been troubling her. Trouble. That's one word I would describe myself. I was in the process of changing clothing when my sister knocked on my door.

"Alice? I'm coming in so hide all your junk."

Not replying back she took that as a sign that I had clothes on.

"You know Alice I know mom's death is hard on you, it is  for me too but we got to keep moving forward." This speech was useless to Alice she heard it at least million times every day.

Alice just looked at her older sister with an eye brow raised.

"You know you haven't talked to Ryder ever since you found out about mother."

Alice just shrugged. What was there to talk about? I mean her mother died I didn't want to bother Ryder with my problems. I bother people a lot. So I decided once I got back I was going isolate myself from people , especially Ryder.

"So is this mute thing a part of your new personality?" Alice knew what Emily was doing she was trying get a rise out of her. It wouldn't work though.

Alice just shook her head and fell on her bed.

"I just, I just don't understand Alice why are you like this?" First she wanted me to be a respectable teenager now she wants me go back to my old self?

Why was I like this? That was a simple yet complicated question to ask. Maybe it was because of her mom's death or maybe it was because of Ryder. Everything was getting to serious, to soon. Everything was hurting her head.

"You know, if you don't talk to him soon he won't want anything to with you."

Good Alice thought as she pulled the cover on top of her. 

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