Wrecked Hearts

Can't say good-bye

Alice's Prov:

Hospitals I was never once a big fan of hospitals. Filled with all the sick, injured or dying. Dying that's what her mother was doing.  The tumor in her mother's brain was spreading quickly. It turned out her mom was keeping this a secret from her four months.

Could she possibly be mad now? Knowing her mother kept this from her and told Emily instead? She knew she couldn't be so selfish. It's been two weeks since arriving at Stanley Hospital, two weeks of watching her mother struggle with the simplest things. Especially remembering. 

It's heartbreaking to watch your own mother forget about you and all the important things. Every time I would enter her hospital room she always asked the nurse 'Who's that young lady?'

Emily she seemed to handle it all better then me which surprised me but, I guess that's older sisters for you. I also knew this was affecting her too. Our dad was gone  and now soon our mom would be gone to. How could life be so cruel? Mom, Emily and me were lucky to survive the car crash but dad wasn't he was the one who got flung out the car window and faced instant death.   

Remembering how mom and me was brought back my guilty feeling inside me. It was the only thing I could feel at the moment so I let it consume me.

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Flash back: A year ago 

I was preparing my make up for a party I was going (sneaking out) to. 'Please let me get pass mom' As I tip toed down the stairs to my unfortunate surprise there was mother, sitting on the couch.

"Going somewhere?" 

"Out." Her and I both knew what out meant. 

"Out, where?" Her mom asked crossing her arm like an authoritative figure. Yeah that wasn't going work on me.

"Where? With friends it's really none of your business." Now you see when your a sixteen year old teenager you think the world should be handed to you and you don't have to obey your parents. 

"It is my business, I'm your mother." 

"My mother?  Since when have you ever started acting like a mother?" 

"Since I gave birth to you , now you need to watch your tone and go to your room." 

She hasn't been acting like my mother ever since the car accident . Instead of paying attention to her daughter like a mom should she busied herself with work instead. Now she suddenly wanted to act like a mother? 

"You may of gave birth to me but, your not my mother I hate you. Your ruining my life actually for that to happen you would have to be in it which, you don't even bother!"  At this point I was shouting at her and it seemed to startle her. 

"Oh please stop being a drama queen, you know I try be best to prove for you and Emily both." 

Hearing her older sister name made her cringe. She also hated Emily to mostly because everything Emily did was just perfect.  Alice could never live up to her mother's expectations but lovely Emily could.  

"Provide? Is that what you call abandoning your children?"  

"I didn't abandoned you!"  Now her mother was easing her voice and clutching her fist. 

"You leave me for what work? Which you so happen to have all the time?" 

"Being an accountant is hard and I work extras hours to keep a roof over your head!" 

"What's the point in having a 'roof over my head' if my own mother doesn't live in it?"  I snapped. 

 "So you won't be out in the streets." Her mother whispered. 

Looking at her mom she could tell she was broken at this point.  At the time, Alice didn't care she needed to get the hell out of that house and away from her mother. So, she took one last glance at her mother and walked out the door.

-End of a flashback- 

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 Alice's Prov:

       Looking back at how she use to treat her mom made Alice feel terrible.  She knew she had to try be strong for her mother though even if her own mother didn't remember her face anymore. 

   Sighing, Alice got up from the chair she was sitting in and went by her mom's side.  

"Hello, who may you be?" Alice's mom asked looking at her own daughter with a curious gaze.

This was hard to deal with but, no more running I have to be here for my mother. Bending over so I could be at eye level with her I say, "Hello Robin, I'm Alice." Looking at her mother she looked nothing like she use to. She was paler then a ghost and had tubes in her mouth. Her once strawberry blonde hair, was now all gone. Her hazel eyes that were once filled with life , were now dull. 

 Her mother scrunched up her nose like the name Alice gave her a bad taste in her mouth.  Looking up at me with a weird look made me believe she was remembering something about me.  'Please anything ' Alice kept thinking while looking at her mother. 

Unfortunately, all her mother said was "That's a pretty name."  I smiled sadly at her and said thanks. Even if she didn't remember me I wanted to stay close with her. Emily would every once in awhile stop by then, she would say she had to go. 

  I wonder where she had to go, knowing that there mother was laying in a hospital bed with limited days of living shortly coming to an end. The doctor gave Emily and me sympathetic looks. Told us she had maybe another week to live. I didn't want sympathetic looks or a week I wanted my mother to be better. 

   No matter how much you wanted something it seems life had a different plan in mind.  I told mom I had to go get some fresh air and she just waved at  me like it was good-bye. Please don't wave at me likes it's goodbye I can't say good-bye.

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