Wrecked Hearts

Time is Precious

Robin's Prov:

Robin Radner was a lot of things but a good mother wasn't one of them.  Her job kept her away from Alice and Emily most of the time.  Time it was something Robin hoped she would have but never did. Especially now that she had cancer.

When she found out the news she admittedly called Emily her oldest daughter.  Mostly because she was in more contact with Emily then Alice. It was hard to connect with a seventeen year old girl who hated your guts.

Now, laying in a hospital bed with a needle in her wrist and the sound of the machine next to her going 'beep, beep, beep' Robin wondered how much time she would have left. She also wondered how much time before the machine would go from 'beep,beep, beep' to 'beeeeeep'.

    It's hard not to think about death especially when you had a brain tumor growing inside your head. There is so many things I still haven't told Alice. I wanted to talk to her but I didn't know how or where to began.

Alice's Prov:

Alice was always closed off with her mom. Maybe she was mad at her mother for always going to work and never having enough time for her. Now her mom didn't have any time at all. Sitting next to her sister Alice looked out the car window.

Driving to where there mother is currently laying in a hospital bed surrounded by doctors and chemo and god knows what. '

Why wouldn't mom tell me?' She kept thinking of all their arguments and all the 'I hate you's' she said to her mother and it caused her eyes to water.

"Hey Alice , what's wrong?" What's wrong? Emily is asking her what's wrong? There mother is laying in a hospital bed counting down the hours, minutes or even seconds before their mother does and she wanted to know what's wrong?

"I'm thinking of all the times I said 'I hate you' to mom."

"Well, that's not a very positive thing to think about." Okay that did it.

"Well. Emily I'm so sorry that I am taking our mother dying as a huge deal. I didn't realize I was the only one who cared about mom." I snapped .

"Alice shut the hell up."

"No! I won't. You are acting like this is not a big deal. Are you really that emotionless?"

That earned Alice a slap across the face. Holding her cheek she looked at her sister with the 'I can't start you eyes.' That was until her sister pulled over and started balling her eyes out.

"You don't understand what it's like Alice. If anyone is the emotionless one when it comes to mom it's you!" Every time you slightly disagreed with her you would yell at her and call her names. Did you even think about how bad that hurt mom?"

"Emily-" I started but she cut me off.

"No Alice don't apologize to me. You think you can be this teenager rebel and you don't even seem to care if you hurt anyone or do anything that would hurt someone."

"That's not true." I tried but the look Emily had given me thought otherwise.

"Yes it is and I had to help mom with everything. You know why she works so hard so she can provide for you and me both!"

All this made Alice stomach feel heavy like she was going to vomit. Alice knew what this feeling was it was guilt. Guilt over the fact that her and her mom didn't even try mend their relationship. Guilt about how she acted towards her mom. Guilt what a hell of a feeling.

Surprising her , Emily wrapped her arms around her little sister tightly. "It's okay sis I promise you I'll be here for you for now on."

"I'm... I'm... I'm sorry." That's all I had to offer for now but I vowed then and there I would change into someone my mother and sister would both  love.

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Ryder's Prov:

After Alice's sister left she explained to me what was going on and I let her cry into my shoulder . I didn't know much about Alice or her family but, it seemed like they had a few problems.  Which I shouldn't be talking considering I have some family problems myself.

"Ryder?"

I looked down on this beautiful but broken girl and asked "Yes?"

"My sister and me are going to go visit mom in the hospital."

"It's going be okay Alice." False words. I hated lying to her but what else could I do for her? Truth was I didn't know if things was going be okay between her and her mom or her mom in general.

She looked at me as if she believed what I said.  What was wrong with her mom? He wanted to ask her but thought better of it.

So instead he put his hands on the side of her face and planted a kiss on her lips.

   I pulled Alice close to me me and said "I'm here for you." Mostly because he was scared shitless to say the words 'I love you' to her. 

Alice never heard those words from anyone before it seems foreign to her.  After they laid embraced in one another's arms she told him that she had to go get ready.

I took that as my cue to leave so I gave her one last kiss and said "See you later." Little did I know at the time that was the last time I would see Alice Radner. 

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Well this was a depressing chapter.  Thank you guys for reading. ^_^