Random Ass Updates And Shit

fuck clothes shopping and changing rooms

idek if this is a rant but if anything thiss will be angry

the problem is that I find no one to be angry at so I get angry at myself which leads to fucking sadness

for those who don't know or relate, I despise changing room from the bottom of my existence

reason for that being that nothing seems to fit and by the end of the day every single fucking inch of my body seems to fucking flawed like ugh

*the surprise, ikr? lmao jk this was expected*

so yeah today I went clothes shopping for eid (religious celebration)  bc you get to buy a new outfit and shit (well it was continuation from yesterday)  and fOR SOME FUCKING REASON EVERY SINGLE FUCKING SIZE BIGGER THAN A SIZE 12 UK (equivalent to 8 US) SEEMS TO DISAPPEAR OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH

WHICH OF COURSE LEADS TO *drumroll*

~~~~ CRYING! AT THE CHANGING ROOM ~~~

yes ladies and gents, the emotionless hoe was fucking crying in the changing room

I was acc gonna buy a skirt that lokked nice on me for once but wouldn't suit what I was gonna wear

then I snapped when the zip to my dress(?) broke even though there WAS SPACE FOR LIKE 3 FINGERS BETWEEN MY SKIN AND THE DRESS

so yeah I ended up so upset I returned all my clothes and went home crying after declining everything my sister suggested and now i have no outfit for eid bc everything looks shit on me :)

oh boi, was that fun

now I'm probably gonna spend eid crying and drawing bc i can't get over myself yay

point is

I'm now a sad piece of emo trash wrapped in my bed sheets with a runny nose and I kindly ask you for a movie to watch lmao

finding dory doesn't wanna work :(

i cri

on the up side i got watercolour pencils and pigment liners yesterday so that's that

au revoir