Best Friends Forever(#YourStoryIndia)

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Before I could say anything, he brushed his lips on mine,  lightly and stars burst behind my eyelids.  I felt him smile against my lips and he kissed me deeper. It was filled with so much love that I felt tears slide through the corners of my eyes. My legs gave away and he snaked one of his arm around me to keep me steady,  without breaking the kiss. I shouldn't be doing this.  I can't lead him on like this. I broke the kiss,  breathing hard. He continued to kiss my neck and my body betrayed me by arching back to give him better access. 

" Dev!!"  I said, still breathing hard. 

" Hmmm."  He sighed, not paying the slightest attention to what I wanted to say. 

He nipped at my exposed collarbone causing me to moan. He bit me and shit!! that hurt. I tried to push him away,  when he started to kiss and suck the bite lightly,  to ease my pain. Pleasure swept through my body and I felt myself melting into him. I shook myself. This time I pushed him hard and he backed up  a few steps, breathing hard. 

" What?"  He asked, irritated. He looked adorable, with his shirt crumpled and  hair all messed up because of me running my hands through it. 

" We cannot do this."  I said, looking away from him. I didn't want to see the hurt that I was about to inflict on him. 

" Why not? " He challenged.

I didn't say anything and hugged myself. 

He moved a bit closer to me and softly said, " You can't deny that you have feelings for me. I know you do.  What is it?" 

" You don't understand. I can't go through all that again." I said, still not looking at me.

He grabbed my arm and forcefully swung me around to face him. He looked majorly pissed off.

" I'm not Sam, Diya. I am not even like..... I would rather kill myself than hurt you." He said. 

" It's not that. I don't want to put myself in that position,  where I could be easily walked on. I can't commit. My track record proves that I'm not made for this shit."  I said, pleading him with my eyes to understand. 

" Or you didn't meet the right person,  until now. Give me one chance. Give us a chance and I'll prove you wrong." He pleaded, desperately. 

I so desperately wanted to believe him. He makes me happy, but I will end up causing him more pain. When I didn't reply he got pissed, again and accused, " It's because of Nakul isn't it. You still love him." 

He laughed humorlessly and continued, " I am a fool to even think I have chance, aren't I?" 

" Answer me,  damn it." He yelled. 

How could I tell this stupid man standing in front of me that I am in love with him and not somebody else. Of course I still love Nakul. A part of me will always love him. He was my first love, first kiss, first everything. Nakul was my brother's best friend. He and I fell in love with each other at a very young age. I confessed to my brother about our relationship and that was that. He didn't like it, at all.  We ended and their friendship also ended because of me. I shook my head to rid myself of those painful memories and to bring myself to the present. I didn't want to hide anything from Dev, thus,  I had told him everything  and it had come back to bite me in the ass. 

" Dev," I started softly, " A part of me will always love Nakul." He flinched, I continued, "The pain is still fresh in my mind. It will destroy both of us. I can't do that to you. When Sam came into my life, I thought god had given me a second chance at love. I was wrong and I don't believe in third chances. We are good as friends, can't we please go back to being friends?" 

I know that was a bitch move. I was throwing his feelings right back on his face. Tears pricked my eyes. I didn't want to cry in front of him. I was pushing him away because I was a coward, because I was afraid of getting hurt. 

" Friends?" He said,  in disgust.

" I don't think I will be satisfied with just being friends with you. I want more." He said, defeated. 

We looked at each other, memorizing each others faces. I knew I wouldn't be seeing him again, unless I changed my mind. I couldn't stop my tears, now.

" Dev please!!." I pleaded.

He smiled at me and brushed my cheek lightly with his knuckles.

" I'm sorry for making you cry. I won't bother you again. I'll walk you home." He said, ever the gentleman. 

He walked me home and before leaving he said, " If you ever need anything, you know where to find me." 

I nodded and hurried inside the gates before I broke down and begged him not leave. In a daze,  I made my way to my room. Thankfully, nobody at home paid attention to my state. I locked the door and leaned against it. What the hell did I do?!!!! I thought in horror. I pushed him away. Fresh tears made their way down my cheek. I brushed them away, only for new tears to take their place. The pain in my heart was unbearable as the enormity of what I had done, sunk in. I collapsed on the floor sobbing hard, not caring that I could be heard by my family. I just didn't care anymore. 

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A/N

I am sorry. I know this is a short chapter. I am actually going through a bad case of writer's block. Next one will better and longer. I promise. 

xoxo

keevai