Ice Cream | Joshler

Chapter 8

Thursday

Tyler

I gasped as i felt Josh's hand on my clothed crotch. He smirked at my and began to palm me through my clothes.

"Wh-what are you doing J-josh?" He smirked again and rolled over so he was on top of me. He rutted his hips against mine making me let out a groan.

"Im just helping you out with your little...problem" he whispered into my ear. He tugged on my ear with his teeth playfully.

Suddenly my phone started ringing and Josh halted above me. I got up from underneath his and went over to my phone which was on his desk.

Incoming Call from:

<3 Mom <3

I sighed and answered the phone bringing it to my ear.

"Hello-"

"Tyler Robert Joseph, i hope i am calling you during class." Crap. I look down hoping to find something to say but all i am met with is my raging hard-on.

"Yeah i was is class until you called me. I was in the middle of a huge english test." I huffed out a breath of fear hoping she will believe my blatant lie.

"Well when you get home from the Dun's house, we need to talk." She hung up immediately and i was left with the deafening noise of the dial tone. I pulled my phone away from my ear and looked back at Josh who was laying on his side. He pats the spot next to him on the bed and opens his arms. I crawl into his hold, becoming the small spoon. He kissed the back of my neck lightly and buried his face into my neck

"So what did she say?" His voice was still low and raw and it vibrated through my body. I sighed and that only made him hold me closer to him. I smiled internally at his actions and wanted nothing more than to just stay there in his arms. Nothing could change my love for this boy.

"She knows I'm here with you. And she wants to talk to me when i get home." I felt him sigh into my skin and lightly kiss it again.

"I dont think you should keep her waiting. I don't want her even more frustrated at you. Especially because of me. Im sorry i caused all this." I rolled around to face him. Meeting his gaze.

"Hey, this isn't your fault. Don't ever blame it on yourself. Okay? You are amazing and so sweet. My mom doesn't know you like i do. So please dont lay here and worry about her because you did nothing wrong." I kissed his nose and i started to sit up from his bed.

"I should probably get home though."

Josh

Tyler kissed me one more time before getting uo and leaving.

"Ill see you tomorrow Joshie." I watched tyler leave and I was alone again. It was just me the heavy eye lids and nodding off came to visit until I was asleep. It was weird not having tyler but I slept just the same as I did when he was here.

I sat up with a groan and turned off my alarm. I was still groggy from the past days events and I didn't really want to get out of bed or do anything. I pushed myself up and went to shower. I got out and pulled on my boxers and black jeans before pulling on my sweat shirt.

As I was walking down stairs I messaged Tyler a good morning but got no reponce. Seeing that it was 6:57 in the morning I figured he was still asleep or in the shower.

I drove to school and got out of my truck to see Tyler pull up. I smiled to myself and started to walk over. Tyler was out of his car and gave me a quick look before pulling up the hood on his jacket and practically running of. Weird. I shrugged thinking he was going to get something and walked to my locker.

In english Tyler moved to sit away from me and at lunch he didn't speak to me. That only fueled my thoughts. What if I had done something? Did I go too far yesterday? I spaced out until the ringing of the bell brought me back to reality.

The rest of my day was the same. Tyler avoided me and I was alone. I didn't have many friends so here I was in gym sitting on the bleachers watching as Tyler played basketball.

Tyler glanced at me then looked away in the locker room. I sighed as I got dressed hating this feeling. The feeling of being neglected. It was something that drives me crazy. I hated this feeling. As I walked out of the locker room I was lost in thought of why Tyler was avoiding me.

This had been my whole day and my anxious nerves weren't helping at all. I got in my truck and started it up and turning on the radio. Something that normally soothed my thoughts was full of songs full of stories of being forgotten or ignored. I sighed and turned it off and ran a hand through my fading blue hair.

I got to work and washed up before starting to clean up around the place. A few hours had passed and Tyler hadn't come for his ice cream. I checked the time. 30 minutes past when he normally comes in. I looked out the window to see him in his shop talking to some people.

I looked away biting the skin off my thumb. Did he hate me? I go back behind the counter and watch as no one came in. It was a slow day today and I hated it. Most days I would have loved it. I could close up and go drum. Yet here I was sitting in an empty shop letting my mind control me because what if tyler came over. I couldn't just close up now and not be able to talk to him.

My mom came out from the back and looked around.

"Honey lets close up no ones here." I nodded but didn't move until I felt her beside me. I didn't really feel like talking to her about this. Once we were all closed up I drove home and went straight to the basement to play. Take my mind off this day. I tapped a rhythm on my drums and let all my nerves from today out. The feeling of being alone and forgotten were gone and it felt good. Drumming rid my head of everything; it made me feel numb. Numb to pain, and numb to love. All i felt was the rage pulsing through my muscles as i hit as hard as i could. 

After about two hours of playing my arms had given out. My emotions flooded back to me. I went to my room and grabbed clothes to change in to.

When I was dressed I was called to dinner. I walked down stairs and sat in my normal spot and ate quietly. Once I was done I got up and went back to my room and flopped down onto my bed. I had homework but i didn't need to do that till Sunday.

He's mad at you again huh?
Oh god not now.

I know what will take your mind off of him.
Please go away...

Ill go away when you listen to me, fag. The voice grew darker and i sat up in my bed holding my head in my hands.

"Go away." I banged on the side of my head. "Go away" i chanted again.

"Go away go away go away Go Away! Just Leave Me Alone! Go Away!" I pulled at my hair as I screamed at the top of my lungs. I began to sob as I continued to scream.

"LEAVE ME ALONE GET THE FUCK AWAY!" I heard dark laughter fill my head.

You don't need me to destroy you, you do it on your own already. I lowered my hands from my head only to see chunks of faded blue fluff in my hands.

"No..." I sobbed louder. I cried into the tuffs. I heard my door open and i looked up to see a very concerned and sleep deprived mother.

"M-mommy.." I sobbed as she came over and sat on my bed holding me in her arms.

"H-he's back."