As fate would have it.

Days gone by

"You know that I can't answer this question my dear. I know that you are sad because you don't know your dad. Trust me I wish I could see him again too but that is not possible.", Hiyori explained patient.

"But why can't we see him? You said that he isn't dead so it is possible!", the blue eyed girl insisted angrily.

"It's not as easy as that. Your dad ... He is ... "

It hurt Hiyori to talk about it. Even after twelve years the pain of loosing the most important persons in her life was still just as strong as it was at the very day they parted ways.

She closed her hand around the five yen coin that she was wearing as a necklace. Those five yen she once gave Yato as she wished for him to stay by his side.
Forever.

But then one day when she was eighteen years old, Yato decided that it was time to say goodbye.

"This is for your own good don't you see that?", he explained desperate. 

"How can loosing my friends be for my own good? Yato! We finally started dating after all those years and now you want to cut our ties? I thought you loved me?", she cried.

"I do love you! And believe me this is anything but easy for me as well but it's the only way I can protect you! You will always be in danger because of me thats why I have to do this."

No matter how much she begged him Yato couldn't be convinced. He had made up his mind. Being with him would put Hiyori in situations that could threaten her life again and again. If she got hurt he wouldn't be able to forgive himself. 

Before he went ahead with cutting their ties he pulled out a single five yen coin, put it in her hand and said: "Do you remember this coin? You gave it to me and wished for me to stay by your side. I'm sorry but I can't grant that wish. I'm so sorry!"

And with that he called for Sekki and cut the ties as fast as he could. Hiyori cried out his name one last time before she passed out.
When she woke up the next morning she was back in her room, the five yen coin in her hands. But she didn't forget about Yato. Neither about Yukine or everyone else. All her memories were still there.

As strong as her desire was to see Yato again she thought it would be for the best to keep her silence about her still intact memories. If Yato knew he would try to cut their ties again and again until she finally had forgotten. 

She decided to make a necklace with the five yen coin in order to keep her promise. The promise to never forget Yato. Even if it hurt to see it, she had to make sure that she would keep her promise.

Only a few weeks later Hiyori found out about another reason why her memories didn't fade.
She was pregnant.

She gave birth to a baby girl when she was only nineteen years old. It was a hard time raising her and Yato's daughter but with the help and support of her family she managed to keep studding and soon she became a doctor just like her father and her brother. Taking the night shifts day after day she was able to take care of her daughter during the day.

Just like that the last twelve years passed by quickly. Hiyori was now a grown up woman of thirty years and her daughter got more curious every day.

She kept on asking for her father ever since she was able to properly think about those things.

All Hiyori could answer though was that her father wasn't dead but even though they wouldn't be able to see him. It broke her heart every time she saw the sad expression on her face. The face that reminded her so much of her father.

"I really don't get you mum! This isn't making any sense. Dad is alive so if we try we can find him ! I know just how much you miss him. I see the way you look at that necklace of yours all the time! How you look at me sometimes! If you miss him so much why won't you look for him?"

There was no denying it. Her daughter was right. She missed Yato more than she could ever say. She missed all of her old friends so much. But the world they life in was no longer a place for her to be. When Yato cut their ties he was certain that he was doing the right thing. So she learned to respect his decision. Even if it meant suffering.

"Tsuki my dear.", she kneed down so she could face her daughter, "You are right I miss your father. I miss him every day but thats a pain I have to life with for his sake. You may not understand it now but one day I will explain everything to you. So please be patient with me okay?"

She wiped away her daughters tears as her mobile started ringing.

"Iki? ... Oh alright, I'll be there in a bid!", it was the hospital calling, "Mum has to go to work there is an emergency. Will you be alright? I can pick you up after school today if you want."

"No I'll be alright. Sorry for asking you about this again."

"It's alright. I understand that you want to know about your origins. It's just that this whole story is really complicated and I want you to be able to understand when I tell you."

"I know. Goodbye mum see you later."
"Goodbye Tsuki."

With a kiss on the forehead Hiyori said goodbye to her daughter and left for work.
Tsuki was left behind with no answer. Again.
She understood that this whole topic was painful for both of them so she couldn't understand why her mother wouldn't give her any answers. If she would just tell her why they can't see her dad she would be able to understand. Thats what she thought at that time.

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"Yato whats up with you? That phantom earlier almost got you!", Yukine coplained.

"I'm sorry. I was spacing out thats all.", the god answered, "Ah well anyway what do you wanna eat today Yukineee? Anything is alright, my treat!"

"You stole my money again so I'll be paying for it after all!"

"What? Now thats insulting. How could you suspect your master of something like that?", Yato retorted trying to sound jokingly.

Even though he tried to hide it, Yukine could tell that his master wasn't the same person anymore. Ever since Hiyori was gone he seemed to be depressed. Of course Yato tried his best so no one would worry but it was painful for the young boy to see his master in a condition like this.

"You were thinking about Hiyori again weren't you?"

Just by mentioning her name Yatos body froze. He turned away from Yukine and started to walk down the street.

"It's been twelve years. Bringing up the past won't change anything. By now I'm sure she is married to some guy and has a family of her own.", he answered not showing any kind of emotion in his voice.

"Come on I know that you miss her! I miss her too! What was all that stuff you taught me about not bottling up your emotions? You shouldn't keep it to yourself. I'm here for you you can talk to me about stuff like that! As your exemplar I wanna be able to help you!"

"I appreciate your concern Yukine, but I'm alright don't worry. Talking about it would only needlessly open old wounds thats all."

There was nothing that could have been done to help Yato. He lost one of the most important people in his life and it was his own choice. He was still convinced that his decision was right and yet it hurt.

What no one knew at this time, was that soon Yato would meet a person that would change his life forever.