Dennise Michelle Lazaro
Thirty minutes had pass and Alyssa was still at the dance floor with my friends, I wanted to see her already, and it's so annoying. I raked my messy hair because of boredom. It's not like I didn't want to dance, I chose to stay in the booth because I wanted to think. I knew bars were not the perfect place for that, pero being in a private booth in the bar is relaxing. At least may pinapanuod ka habang nag iisip.
After drinking my fifth wine in a shot glass, I opened the door to let the noise come in. I looked around checking for my friends and not long enough I spotted them, seeing them having the time of their lives were satisfying. I was happy to see them together again.
Then suddenly the smile on my lips slowly turned line as I saw Alyssa and Laura. Sure, I've been telling myself that I've moved on and wala ng epekto ang lahat, but then I realized na sobrang hirap din palang mag panggap. I could not say that I still love her, but I would say that Im missing her, my muscles aches for her touch specially hugs.
By just looking at Alyssa, I could hear the monster in my heart... Screaming her name, over and over and over again. I don't want to say that I still love her, because if that happens then I don't know. Im afraid tho, Im afraid that being with her again would hurt me like before.
My eyes burned when Laura kissed her on the lips. I wanted to get up and pull her hair really hard, I wanted to punch her face for kissing Alyssa, but why would I do that? Who am I to Alyssa's life? Her ex-girlfriend, duh! And Laura's a friends of mine.
Hindi ko nga ba alam kung when and how did we become friends. Her name was familiar when I met her but I didn't know that she is the Laura whom Alyssa had sex for a night five years ago.
Frowning, I looked away and leaned my back against the cold leather couch. I grabbed another shot glass of grape wine and gulped it straight. Wala akong balak maglasing but Alyssa's making me do this. Hindi niya naman ako pinipigilan eh, at wala ding pumipigil or pipigil saakin.
How sad right? Sila may kasayaw, ako walang kainuman. Nakakainis lang. Though, Im just stupid to say no to Alyssa's request. Gusto niyang mag usap kami, pero ayoko. Thinking about talking to her would just kill the heck out of me. She has that charm that every time I talk to her everything in the past would just flash like a movie in my eyes then... Magagalit nalang ako.
I shut my eyes as I took a deep sigh. A song played inside my head causing me to smile, "only one thing it could be, that I was... Born for you, it was written in the stars," I just can't help it but to feel relaxed by just singing it.
"You still can sing!"
Hearing her voice made my heart jumped in joy, "ganda ng boses niya diba?" Laura asked whilst clinging to Alyssa's arm.
I bit the inside of my cheek as I felt the anger starting to grew in my chest. If before I could control myself, now I doubt it.
"I didn't know na kumakanta ka pa pala, ako kasi hindi na."-Alyssa
"Aww, bakit naman? Maganda siguro boses mo!"-Laura
"Uh, sino ba naman kasing kakantahan ko? Wala naman." Sagot naman nung isa at saka umupo sa katapat kong couch. Napaiwas ako ng tingin dahil sa tigas ng pag titig niya sa mga mata ko.
"Ako, kantahan mo ako."-Laura
"Huwag na Laura, baka umulan pa." Sabad ko naman, "I mean hindi sa hindi maganda boses mo ah? Pero, feel ko talaga uulan pag kumanta ka."
"Grabe ka Dennise!"-Laura
I shrugged, "Just saying!" Subukan niyang kumanta, kutos to sakin.
"Oh? Sige, ano bang kanta gusto mong kantahin ko Laura?" Nakangising tanong ni Alyssa, napatigil ako sa pag inom, "Kahit ano kakantahin ko..."
