Soonhoon | | Hozi : Letting go

T h i r t y - e i g h t

Sun shines brightly, illuminating ray from the leaves from the maple tree swaying with chill breeze. Looks like it was completely contrasting, the wind was cold yet it is bright and sunny. Soonyoung could feel similarity on what's going on in his life.

That bench. Of course, he wouldn't forget about that bench. He walk the root of his memories and seated on the bench, silently recalling the agonizing past. 

This is where him and Jihoon reunited, where he saw Jihoon forgetting him.

He cut off the sadness and brought out his phone. Playing with his phone, he patiently waited for Seyong. When he heard a consecutive footsteps from the aisle, he breath out and locked his phone. 

"What took you so long?" He frowned after he didn't obtain a respond from him. 

"What are you doing here?" Without noticing, his chest was burning from his low voice which came from a distance. Bit by bit, he grimaced and surprised to see Jihoon with his pair of eyes fiercely staring at him.

"J-jihoon."  Soonyoung get up from the bench, eyes were sullen and Jihoon can't lie from himself. His eyes can't lie at all, hiding the truth but he can feel it, he's hard as stone but soft hearted person.

"You can meet with Seyong but not with me? We were worried about you! We're going crazy because we don't have any idea where have you been or what are you doing! If you're fine or-------"

"I-I'm sorry." Soonyoung cut him off and bow down his head.

Jihoon sighed in disbelief. "That's all Soonyoung?"

He take a step, firmly hold his shirt as he lifted his head meeting Soonyoung's eyes that began to be watery.

"Because of you, I lost my memories. Because of you, I became fool crying over you. Because of you, I almost die. Why are you still here, why do I have to see you?!" He vigorously pull him, punch his chest and soon, he's bawling his eyes out. 

"J-jihoon, y-you, you can hit me, or maybe, forget.....forget I e-existed, f-forget I w-was once your....." 

 Soonyoung pause, holding back his tears that's about to fall."Your friend."

Forget I was once yours.

"I know t-that you hate me so much for putting your life in danger, forgetting your memories and making -you c-cry but if you let me talk to Seyong, I p-promise that t-this will be the l-last time that you'll see m-me."

Deep down, Jihoon was urged to embrace Soonyoung. He feels safe when he's inside his arms, like no one can harm him when he's with him. But now he can't, he can't because Jihoon is hurting whenever Soonyoung linger in his mind. In slow pace, Jihoon loosen up his hand, looking down his feet crying his eyes out. Though he wanted to hurt Soonyoung so bad, he doesn't like because it breaks his heart looking at him in pain.

"Woozi."

"Don't call me with that name."

"I don't care if you'll slap me, I don't care if you will hurt me." His face showed distress as he closed his eyes, drops slowly ran down his face. 

"Woozi, I-I will return the ring b-because I-I will not return again once I give you my last gift for you. I'm sorry Jihoon, I'm so sorry."

They stood there for a moment under the gloomy clouds, then water began to sprinkle, cold and wet on my skin. Drops of water trickled down their body. His hands moved from the side of his arms, embracing himself from the cold wind that shivers him. Quietly, Soonyoung removed his jacket out of his body. He wiped off his tears as he walk towards Jihoon who seems that he can't stop from weeping. 

He extended his arms around the petite's body and put his jacket on his shoulders. Jihoon was frozen on how Soonyoung take good care of him.

"Looks like the sky is crying for you. I want to see your smile again Woozi." As Soonyoung fixed the folded parts, Jihoon suddenly embraced him lightly and let out a loud sob.

"S-seyong will be mad if he see us like this Jihoon."

"You don't know the truth Soonyoung."  He was immersed by the unexpected warm hug from Jihoon but he needs to pull away because it will only hurt him even more. 

"I-I have to---"

"Go? You want me to let go of you?"

No, I want you to stay Jihoon.

But, I'm sorry.

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