Soonhoon | | Hozi : Letting go

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Soonyoung slowly slipped down Jihoon's arms when Seyong call out his name. He was astounded when he tighten up his hands like he didn't want to let go of him. Soonyoung should remove his arms before tears leaves his puffy eyes. He can't lie. He can't hide it and pretend to be okay once he saw the reason of his depression.

Seyong came on the scene and made them separate.

In tremendous melancholy, Jihoon pushed him away and before he leave, he left a message that break Soonyoung's heart entirely.

"Leave me alone or d-die." His voice cracked and soften at the last word of his sentence. Soonyoung looks like a kid being left by his mother, alone wondering why he was lonely and totally forgot about him as if he didn't existed for so long. 

"I'm sorry Jihoon." Seyong apologized yet he totally ignore it and bumped Soonyoung intentionally. Emptiness, worthless, sadness combined together trembling inside him, enough for him to crush his heart. He look down with series of teardrops with the falling rain were comforting him.

"Stay here." Jihoon didn't have the power to take another step further. Slowly turning his head on Seyong, he flare out phrases which was heavy to accept it, grinding his brittle heart.

"He can't even stay with the person who caused a permanent scar, how could he even stay to someone whom he can't even deal with?" 

"I-I can. I'll wait for you."

'How can you do that?' Jihoon mumbled internally in his confused mind.

"Thank you." He gained all his energy and prepared to shove him away from his touch. Jihoon narrow his sight with Seyong, averting his eyes to the person which only causing him to feel lonely and depress.

"Just go. I can take care of myself." He thought that he will make him free from his hand. Instead of expecting not to imprisoned, he clasped and pull him closer his body as he intensely stare Jihoon.

"I'm----"

"Let go."

"I'm sorry for faking it out, for performing like your boyfriend, for being selfish and choosing to lie in love. Jihoon, this is the the day I didn't want to happen while thinking the future." He gave up. He already gave up on the improbable information that he can't stand anymore. 

"For 3 years, you....HOW CAN YOU......" He struggle so hard to remove his hand from gripping him making the pain grew tougher and very heartbreaking to Jihoon, but then Seyong wrapped his arms around him, sniffling his shoulders. 

"I loved and love you Lee Jihoon but I know he loves you more than I do." His chest tighten, squeezing from the enormous crestfallen of what's going in his life. Jihoon can't handle and control himself after receiving fuzzy circumstances which he wasn't expecting that will be unfold from the past which is still mystery. 

"So what am I to you? Did you used me as your toy? How I wish I spend my life with SCoups than you." Completely surprised from the words Jihoon uttered, he didn't thought that he chose Seungcheol over the man whom he really love so dearly.

"I didn't expect you want to spend your time with Seungcheol than Soonyoung. If you think I only used you as a cover up, then what can you call with Soonyoung?"

"What are you talking about?"

"Tell me the truth. Do you have a past relationship with Seungcheol that's why you can't give Soonyoung a straight answer when he was courting you? Because all this time, you have a deep feelings towards that guy and you're the absolutely playing him and toying the innocent one and being blinded because of his love to you. How can you do that to Soonyoung?"

Jihoon heaved in disbelief, placing his palm in his mouth with the tears threatening to trickle down his cheeks. Small tiny beads slowly escaped in his sorrow eyes, gushing on his very miserable face, showing distress and showering all his pain closing his eyes tightly.

"Seungcheol was my friend and I love him."

Seyong tried to hold back his fury but he can't so he ended up screaming on top of his lungs, bursting into a well after Jihoon's confusing reply on what he interrogated.

"You love him, then you are playing with the three of us especially Soonyoung who was suffering all this years with guilty being stabbed in his chest and screaming out loud to save him from the growing sting living inside him which he doesn't know how to soothe it. You don't need t lie on me, I can see in your eyes they were enticing me to believe in your lie yet still I can clearly see the truth. You love him more than what Soonyoung did to you, how "

"That's not what I'm saying!"

"Then what?"

"You don't know anything about me."

He decided to leave that part a mystery, there will be a perfect time to discover that history. With heavy steps moving forward, he look down in his lumps, gazing his trembling hands and finally brought it out and placed it lightly on Jihoon's face.

"Now for real, can you be mine Jihoon?" 

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